all day i felt weird. timmy kept asking me what was wrong and I didnt know what to say cuz i wasnt really sure. eventually i started talking to him about us and being engaged.. and i said maybe its not supposed to happen. cuz sometimes it really feels like everything is saying it shouldnt.cant. wont. theres so many thinggs to think about. so many things to do. some many things. and i dont think anything is getting done. we didnt actually engage in the conversation as much as i'd ahve liked to.. or fiinish. but, at least he knows I'm having a hard time and a few doubts. instead of being completely in the dark. i wish i knew what he was thinking, without the sugarcoating. on the other hand... i had a javascript apifany. altho somewhat miniscule to an advanced 'javascriptian' (words dont controll us) i had no idea how to do a certain function and low and behold, i figured it out all by myself. I was sure i was going to have to call timmy over to help me molest my book for guidance (he's good at that stuff) but i solved the problem in just a few minutes.. without even breakin a sweat. hee :)