ever get the feeling people are talking about you behind your back right in front of your face?? I have.. its awkward. and it sucks. most of the time i am just being paranoid. but sometimes I am not. and its those times that peck at me every time the feeling arises.. ask or don't? whatever. screw it. people can think what they effing want. i just took a quiz on fb.. it was the "what crazy bitch are you?" quiz lol... I got sylvia plath.. and it says "You are one intense bitch. You are almost abnormally introspective but this is where your abundant creativity flows from. You love handsome, brilliant, creative genius types but you pay the price when their egos and lustful ways cause them to betray you. You are a very intelligent, classy lady with a black streak and can be very emotional at times. You do have a bit of a morbid side but your words often lead you to be misunderstood as a dark figure but that is just how you protect your soft mushy insides.." i know right??? THAT^^^^^^ is so true! mostly the part that says i am abnormally introspective.. no kidding. So. I've always known I was child-like (not childish.. there's a difference)... but I just recently discovered exactly how much... People are so.. different from me.. at my age. I feel like i am a 17 year old trapped in a 14 year olds body.. only i am 22.. almost 23... if i at least felt 22 and looked younger.. it'd be ok.. or the other way around.. but nothing about me feels 22. I haven't lived. Is it life that makes people cold and take away their innocence? That numbs their hearts and take their ability to feel anything? Rahm says I have the gift of bringing people down to earth :) and that is why i love Rahm.. looking at it in a positive way... instead of just assuming i am completely naive and ridiculous like every other person.. :/ I have always wanted to make a movie. direct one.. but i am not cool enough. I've also always wanted to write a novel. ha. I did some light research on Sylvia Plath.. and he novel.. "the bell jar" is somewhat of an autobiography.. based on true events. i want to do that... if only i were that cool.