Yesterday I got up at 7:45 and left my house at 8:30 to get to Grant High School at 9., which would have been just making it. But with me and my mother, there is no such thing as "just making" anything.

At 8:45 we are stopped behind a semi truck at a stop sign. Well this semi just starts backing up. Being no more than 2 feet infrot of us... this was a bit of a problem. Especially since we drive a little toyota tresell or however you spell it. Before my mother could put us in reverse the truck pushed us back a good 10 feet. My mother was freaking out..I laughed. Who backs up at a stop sign? 'Specially in a semi truck! And not even making sure it was ok to do so.. but at least now I can say I was hit by a semi truck and survived, and not be lying. Well, that little incedent made me rather late which didnt help when I got there and had o clue where the class was. But all ends well.

ROP class was interesting. IdiotDoer is so... gay. Seriously. Friday night on the phone he's all "hey you should go to class and blah blah blah." and when I said I was probably going to LA he said "well call me and we'll hang out." And I was happy. And the first thing he says to me is "what are you doing here?" in a not so nice tone at all. ass. Olaf told me IdiotDoer was stoned. Figures. He is mean when he is stoned... so I just hung out with Olaf the whole time. He is awesome and nice and I would have ben a loner all day if it werent for him. IdiotDoer was being nice to everyone. And flirting with the girls, all but me. Figures. Thanks a bunch IdiotDoer. I give up. I do. I dont like him anymore. not true, but it will be. As of right NOW I am starting the process of getting over IdiotDoer. I am good at that. worked with Turtle. Speaking of Turtle..no nvm lets not speak of him. MOVING ON...

So from now on I am all about God and school and family and friends and work and NO boys for as long as it takes to forget all the nonsense this crazy ROP class has caused meh. I am kinda SORTA happy though. Because I know God is just preparing for me for something bigger, a REAL heartbreak yet to come. These are nothing. And I know it. So I dont know what I am doing right now but I am learning. So when the big bang comes I will be able to get through it no problem. YAYA. Its all for the best.

I miss my brother and I talked to him yesterday. wasn't enough. *sigh* darm it.

My moms friend OtherMother picked me up from ROP at 3. She's cool. I like talking to her. We went grocery shopping cuz she just moved and had no eats. I just hung out with her and her son the rest of the day. It was fun fun fun in the hot dog bun of my soul.

This just in:

Citris increases your metablolism.

BUY SOME GRAPEFRUIT JUICE TODAY!!!!

I want to take singing lessons again. I suck now... and most likely sucked before. My brother says I have a pretty voice:) I miss him. darm it again.

So not to go back to a miserable state of mind but thebadperson really depressed me recently. And it was worst than it was 3 years ago, but 3 years ago I ignored it and forgot about it and was happy for a while. Then it all came back and I think I am doing the same thing as before, trying to forget and ignore it. I dont want to do that. I dont want it to be worse. I want to deal with it but I dont know how. o well.

BUT! right now i am HAPPY! yay!

Well I wanted to write all that yesterday but I couldnt finish so I will write more later cuz I am a loser.

bye all have a fantabulous day