OK. maybe this is just a phase (and theres a very good chance it is) buuuuut i need some possitive goals ya know? and i KNOW that this is a bit of a long shot and like i said... might just be a phase.. but hey. its something to work towards and when is that a bad deal?? I think. I want to pursue.. modeling. NOt that im this concieted person who thinks they are hot pockets.. but modeling isnt all about looks and body. I mean it is for some but alot of it is just how well its presented and its art. body art. well thats more like tattoos.. but you know what i mean. and really anyone can.. so hey. why not right? plus Ive been dying for a new excuse to get skinny as heck. WOO. lol i worked out all day today, and then i had ice cream and a bag a chips.. isnt that just ridiculous? lol. there will be none of that for a while. or ever. who knows. I must say I love ice cream so it will be sad to see it go but this is for the good of man kind!! or just the ones who have to look at me :) in otherrrrrr news. me and timmy are going hiking tomorrow in the afternoon and then we're moving some or most of my stuff to the mothers. uhg. i HATE HATE HATE with a firey passsion.. MOVING. I hate it. i guess thats why theres a thing called movers. but who's cool enough to get those?? Im kinda glad that jeffy will have some grass to run around on instead of chewing up EVERYTHING here. And some doggies to annoy. i know he loves that. I decided. i dont want to have that one song i wanted to be sung at my wedding to even be in it at all. for certain reasons unexplained. new era. new song. and its cooler and betters. and full of carbohydrates. or something cool. why is it that every time i take off my pants it gets cold & then i put them on and its crazy hott?? what gives man? oh and i dunno why i thought of this but there was a question in a survey and it said what piece of clothing is the mostt uncomfortable and Im thinking.. duh. bras. and from now on as God is my witness.. i hereby veto bras and all the evils they stand for! yeah thats basically it about that... Sooo hmm. althoughhhh i am moving home and blahdy blah so i can get over certain "areas" of life.. i reeeeally dont even think it will take as long as i originally thought it would. I mean. Its getting easier and easier everyday JUST REALIZING i have issues.. in that area. Admitting you have a problem is the biggest step. Yep and the rest is a piece of cheesecake. cuz regular cake is for lesbos. OK! thats the skinny. This has been The Latest Updates of Jenis Life. Thank you for watching and have a great day. unless i dont like you, then you can go [pick a letter]uck yourself. teehee. _________________________________________ muahaha. that is soo weird. I dunno but Im pretty sure my brothers friend andrea is dating this guy I used to refer to in high school as "THE beautiful boy". well when i used to be into extremely punkish rebels.. and me and jenae would pretty much stalk him & his friend around the mall.. it was so lame. yeah im pretty sure its him. same face. same hair. different color tho. he looks so gross now. not very beautiful. haha. how ironic. are you reeeady to be liberateddd???? do do do. young crazed peeling people. its addictive under certain circumstances.. like now. i miss the days when all that mattered were friends and brody and being an idiot in public. growing up is so played... imma go to sleep. hikinggg tomorrowwwww. if we're lucky we'll get captured by mountain people with creepy faces and taken to be experimented on. AHH! i just scared myself. lol. ok nitey nite kiddos. cept the smelly ones *plugs nose*