really a myspace survey but i dont like posting these on myspace.. 2am 1. What was going through your mind during your last kiss? something like "mmmm soft lips :]..." and just that i reaaallly like him... muchly... 2. How did you do on the last test you took? i dont remember 3. What is your ringtone for when people text you? its a really obnoxiously annoying ringy thing but i dont know how to change it unless i set my phone on silent.. then it vibrates 4. What show did you last watch? roswell 5. Whose arms do you feel the safest in? iiii dont. 6. What foods make you sick? most dairy 7. Do you get shy around the guy/girl you like? depends. 8. Do you remember what you were doing a year ago? last year i was living in an apartment with tim and his brother going thru all THAT drama and being treated horribly i might add. annnnddd school i think. 9. Do you still have feelings for your ex? of course i do. we were really close. but i dont want them. and they fade more everyday. i wish i could forget everything because.. i know its really sad to admit but.. it obviously wasnt worth it and i see that clearly now. 10. Name something you like and hate about your default picture. i like the colors. i hate the background? 11. Do you have family problems? meh. somewhat. not like before. 12. Where are most people in your top from? california 13. What was the last meal you ate? my brother made me mac and cheese and a bunch of pizza rolls.. yeah very healthy i know. 14. Who are there pictures of in the room you're currently in? hmm. me. james dean. marylin manroe. charlie chapman. napolean dynamite. etc. 15. Name one thing people think about you thats not true? i might be able to answer this better if i were telepathic. 16. Do you give special ringtones to certain people? no Im lazy and i dont like spending too much time with my phone cuz its not that sexy 17. What's the weather like outside? freeezing. 18. Have you ever seen a 3D movie in theaters? uhm. i dunno 19. How was your last relationship? the worst... because it seemed great but it wasnt.. and thats the worst! full of lies. full of drama. a huuge mistake. i'd rather cry over the truth than be happy over a lie. 20. Where'd you get everything that you're wearing? my grandma got me this robe for christmas a few years ago. andddd my mom bought these rainbow socks for me a couple bdays ago. andddd shirt is frommmm swap meet. 21. Do you text with T9-Word or ABC? eitherr 22. Have you memorized your social security number? yeahh 23. Have you ever had a dream about people you love dying? yeah its pretty crazy 24. Who was the last person you couldn't keep your mind off of? he knows who he is. 25. What was the last advice you gave someone? dont be stupid cuz it sucks... yeah my advice kills and you know it. 26. What radio station do you listen to the most? none son. ipod.. 27. What was your worst grade last quarter? i didnt take any classes 28. If you died today, would there be anything you wish you could've said to someone? i would tell everyone everything i could think of. I'd tell ym family I'm sorry for what I've bcecome. 29. Are you on youtube? like. right now? no. 30. What do you think about the person that last texted you? i wanna huuuuug himm.. i just want to spend time with him... i just wanna.. i just wannnaahAhAAAA... oh girls they wanna have fuuUn. o.. sorry.. 31. How do you like your school? dont know 32. Why did your last relationship end? what is with all the "last relationship" nonsense.... it ended because he never wanted it to begin with apparently. and he was just too much of a coward to break up with me himself.. soooooooo he just waited until i did it for him. because boys are the devil. thats the last time i trust a boy. i'm getting myself a man. or at least a guy. no boys allowed. 33. Are you friends with any of your exes? just one- ish. 34. Are any of your exes on your top friends? no thats ridonkulous 35. What's the last food you ate that was stale? chips 36. Do you like to start rumors? oh yea its the best.. ha no. 37. Who will you never forget? lots of people. for better or worse. it would take forever to write tthem all.. 38. Have you ever questioned your sexuality? im straight 39. What are you afraid of? needles in my inner elbow.. being alone in the dark... tinted windows.. dykes.. PeoPlE wHO Type LikE ThIs.. nazis.. 40. What do you look for in a relationship? Same beliefs.. trust... PASSSION... communication... wanting the same things for the future... loyalty... 41. Would you ever consider having a relationship with your best friend? hmm i dont have a guy best friend. the closest thing would be sal and he's married. and if he wasnt.. ew. no weird.. lol. 42. What piercings do you want to get? none. 43. Have your friends ever seen you cry? probably.. 44. Who was the last person you cried in front of? lol manuel and my mom in the car on the way back from my gma's.. not a lot. a sad song came on.. memories. stupid ones. bah! it was that stupid song from lifehouse-whatever it takes..... its just sad how untrue things can be sometimes. 45. Can you do a push-up? mhmm 46. Are you self conscious about your weight at all? i dont know.. i feel ok right now but i could do better 47. Have you ever had a panic attack? maybe a couple times. but not huge if i did. its just like shortness of breath and fainty and all disoriented feeling... right? it wasnt too bad. maybe i didnt have one. 48. Name the last time you got really anxious. yesterday 49. Would you ever consider moving back in your hometown? this is my hometown 50. Describe your laugh? i have a few different ones. the one i hate is when i laugh like a boy 51. What do you think about the person that last commented you? he's a sexy beast 52. How did you meet the last person you kissed? he was flying by my house on a mystical creature from peru.... but these creatures only live for 7 hours so it died and landed on my roof.. i ran out and he was unconcious on the flloor so i gave him cpr. he kissed me and i turned into a canary.. which made my mother very upset. so we got into a hot air balloon and went to the land of OZ where 3 fairies turned me back into a girl and we lived happily ever after.. and then wwe had babies. we named one john travolta. lol. 53. Are you currently going out with that person? i dont think so?.. we're dating. whatever that means. lol should i know this? cuz i have no idea. we were in the parking lot before i was going home on halloween and he said something about "officially" and exclusive" so what else could that mean right? but then a couple days later he said he makes a big deal out of it when he asks a girl out and blah and basically went in crcles until i realized we're just dating... or something. maybe I'm just one of those crazies who hear random things in parking lots... thank you's, invitations, proposals.. a parking lot can be a very misleading place for someone like me.. 55. Who sings the song you last sang? beatles 56. Have you ever modeled for anything? yeah but it was just a photo shooot for my church youth group.. thats where the first pic in my pics is from. 57. Plans for this weekend? well its monday or tuesday or whatever so i dont know yet. 58. How was last weekend? super. i went to watch jason host a show annnd it was really funnn and he's cute. yeah. 59. Have you ever been to California? Only in my dreams... 60. How about New York City? wait.. this isnt new york city? what the french, toast? 61. What's your favorite color to wear? blue, green, white ------------------------------------------- Whoaa!! its my sitD anniversary today :] yay! I have had this diary since 11/6/03!! wow! 4 years... g's. SitD i love yoouuu, 4 years worth... and thats crazy awesome. lol.. pillow fights. haha. crazy awesome. ok im done. Jason is great. he keeps asking "have you been to that restaurant or that place" and I'm always saying no.. i didnt get out much... and he was like alll sad for me lol. and said that he's the kind of guy who loves to take his girl out to dinner. and as soon as his job picks up he's gonnnna. right now we're probably not gonna see a lot of each other. suckies but.. absence makes the heart grow fonder I suppose. I'm going to pick up some things from tims. and drop some little stuff off. and then i'm gonna have to find something to do until i go to dinner at pdk's. I would just leave here at 6 to go to tims but who knows when he gets off work.. i dont wanna see him. so im going now.. maybe i'll go to the library and read a book while i wait! lol jason asked me what my favorite books were and i couldnt say cuz i dont read. he said it didnt matter but i know it does. on his myspace one thing he says is that he thnks the saddest thing is an empty bookshelf or something.. someone who doesnt read. psh i dont wanna be sad. I would love to love to read.. but its hard for me. maybe i'm just not reading the right books.. So i'm gonna give it another go ha.. ---------------------------------------------- bah. i hate distance. i havent seen him since.. sunday night. i just want to sit with him somewhere comfy and talk. or just sit. not doing anything really. like that day we went to the beach and laid on a blanket and it was dark and cold and we were all cuddly and we didnt say much for a while.. it was nice. now when we see each other its in the middle of both towns. and we dont have anywhere to go that isnt public. thats actually probably a good thing right now.. but still. i was supposed to see him tomorrow but he cant. and thursday im having dinner with pdk because our plans fell thru tonight. andddddd so friday it is. a whole week.. but i guess it'll make it that much better when we do see each other.. he makes me happy. crap. i forgot to leave tims stuff at the apartment. its just a backpack, office space dvd, and a shoe.. they got mixed into my stuff i guess. i cant rememeber who owns office space. i think i gave it to him for christmas? or maybe he gave it to his brother for christmas? who knows. maybe i'll just keep it and throw the shoe and backpack away. i dont feel like going over there again. plus i dont have the key anymore. crap. i stll have stuff in the storage. a few things. gah. when does it end?? i think he's satan in a boys body. gross. ok now.. im going to work out and watch what i wish i had. max and liz= perfect. but perfect isnt real. i just like the ideaaaaaaa.