it all went wrong at 1100 and 700... Someday I will get these numbers to make sense.. its really bugging me.. I wanna see a movie.. Tim is taking a nap. He doesn't wanna.. maybe I'll just go alone.. what's wrong with seeing a movie alone? I hate being alone in the dark.. i mean there would probably be people there.. strangers.. I might die. what if i am the only one there with some creepy guy and he follows me to my car and kills me in the parking lot? hmmmm? yeah i knew you were thinking it too.. ok probably wouldn't happen.. movies are boring without someone to talk to about it after. Stupid insurance company isn't open until Tuesday. Of course it has to be a holiday weekend... Now I definitely wont get answers before we leave. I guess I have to wait 3 weeks.. uhg... This is going to drive me insane.. I am the absolutely MOST impatient person on the planet.. and 3 weeks is already long anyways.. blah. I guess this gives me time to think of what it is i want from knowing.. just to know? or take action? to change? I mean just reading articles about it that sound like me.. i get a feeling like "This is me". and its nice. just feeling a part of something. like someone is finally telling me a secret they've been taunting me with my whole life. I've always felt different from everyone. I've never met anyone like me.. I mean sometimes its a good thing.. for one (once I got over insecurities) the guys I liked always seemed to like me because i guess the kind of guys i liked liked different..? i dunno. I'm not a typical girl.. I'm not a typical anything. I think if I understand myself and why I do things.. I can handle things with a more.. preventative approach. This wouldn't be the first time I'd be wrong after being sure about something.. but i really feel like this is it. I want to tell someone. Besides Tim. Someone besides SitDiary. I just want to talk about it. But, maybe I should wait until after I know for sure. blah blah blah I am boring! we leave in 4 days. too much to do. house is a mess. haven't packed. I'm overwhelmed....