my mom makes me so crazy. Today was an ok day.. i guess it can still get better. sucks right now tho. I should probably just go take a nap or something instead of dwelling on it.
o well. me and my mom went to run errands. and get a new metronome and some headphones. and such. and everything was fine and we were talking and i dont know what happened.. i was talking about sean and all this good stuff and then she was telling me to be careful or something and then she brought up brett and andres. and I have told her like 80% of everything i did in those relationships. and she was acting like she had no clue about any of it.. and i hate talking to her in the car cuz I feel like im just stuck there and i have to deal with it...and she should know. I mean i told her about andres like 4 different times just in the last 2 months. and in the car she was like.. in shock and i was in the middle of eating cuz we stopped by kfc and she asked me a question about it and i had food in my mouth so i just kept chewing and she was like "i just got my answer" and i was like what?? what answer? and she said that my "silence" confirmed what she was thinking and then i was mad because that is the lamest thing to do to someone.. and she said that its even more true cuz i was being defensive. and the fact that its true or not.. doesnt matter... i was mad at how she was conducting the conversation. she was being completely irrational. And then we get in the house and she says "you know what? youre mad anyways so im just going to say it.. it sounds like you blew it and youre just afraid to tell me" so now she thinks i had sex and i didnt. i mean i almost did. but i didnt and i guess if you add up everything i have done.. it pretty much doesnt matter. she can go ahead and think what she wants. and it hurts to even think of that stuff and it hurts more that she wont believe me. i dont know. she cant ever just be happy for me.. she has to turn everything into something its not. i was excited talking to her today and she is so negative about things.. just because she is miserable...
well. on the upside. i get to go to church and watch the girlz video and its supposed to be funny. and on the up up side.. i get to see sean tonite. so thats grood. i mean good. and great. great and good.
Vannessa