| oi. uh.. well.. so much to say I dont even really know where to start. Things about Brett. even sal, things about me and things about my mom, about the brother and now new issues with jay... its like everytime I really think I am over that.. he comes back to haunt me.. Um.. I have 15 minutes so.. heres some stuff. If I had to pick 5 people that I cared about the most I would pick Jason, Brett, Vannessa, Jenae, and Deanna. Deanna is gone but I still care about her more than most. I dont know why its such a big issue for me but it would be nice if all these people got along.. I mean the people you love loving each other is pretty cool... and everyone does except my brother and brett.. Jason doesnt even know brett. He doesnt want to know him. Brett is my first boyfriend. Thats kinda important to me... I was so excited to tell my brother. The second day I knew brett my brother called and I tried to tell him about him and he didnt really care. And when we started going out or when we broke up or when or when I showed him pictures.. he didnt really care. And it really hurts me. Because he is my big brother and I dont want to but I really care about his approval and thoughts and I dont know... I was supportive when he went out with Emmy.. and that was hard cuz well.. it was emmy.. And then I was supportive when he started dating that girl from the army in texas when he was in north carolina and when he was out on leave he drove all the way from our house (cali) to new mexico to see her for 1 day after knowing her a month.. gay. Long story but I was supportive in that too and Brett is a great person.. and he doesnt even give him a chance.. he judges him before he knows him. I was in the car with my cousin and Jason and my cousin starts smoking.. and I told him to stop and he told me that if I get to hang out with Sal than he gets to smoke.. (that didnt make sense) and I asked why and he started saying how he doesnt like sal and blah blah and yeah so they dont like sal.. and then brett came up and I said something like he didnt do anything why do you hate him? and kenny said "he was himself" and jason goes "yeah he was himself"...???? what? I dont get it. They are both so arrogant. Sometimes I hate my brother.. I dont know why it matters so much. I dont know why I care.. he is leaving anyways. He doesnt care about me or he wouldnt have gone in the first place. asshole. There is more but I have to go. this is the beginning of well.. alot. ouch and on top of all the drama going on... I was so angry that I threw a shoe at my wall and it hit a picture. glass got all over. so I picked it up but I missed a piece.. a big piece and it got jammed into my foot.. and I yanked it out and yeah ouch blood is scary. And yesterday I twisted (or something)my left ankle and this happened to my right foot.. I have to do alot of walking today..so I dont know what I am going to do.. ouch. I'll write more when I get home.. around 3 or 4... or earlier I dont know... |
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