[434] 1 Month

i got my wisdom teeth pulled. finally. well not finally cuz im actually really young to be getting them pulled out.. but theyve been such a pain for a while now. off and on but yeah. It was ok.. my doctor is awesome. he's really nice.. he actaully just called like 30 minutes ago to see how i was and gave me his cell phone # if i have any problems. i hate when i dont know what happens... thats why i would never do drugs or get drunk.. cuz i want to know everything i do.. whats the point if u cant remember? well.. I got the gas and they said it took like 45 minutes.. but it felt like 5 minutes. i dont even remember them putting the gas on or anything.. the last thing i remember is the doctor saying that it would be fun. and then he put an IV in my arm!!!! AHH! SO Im trying not to look at my arm cuz holy cow... i am ok with shots in the side of my arm but I can not stand it in the crease of my arm.. and for a long time like that ahH! i gave blood once and NEVER AGAIN! ever! yeah i just remember looking ahead at the wall and then i would feel pressure and it would hurt alot but not alot alot but enough and i'd try to open my eyes and theyd say to keep them closed. The dude before me looked AWFUL! he walked by me in the waiting room and my mom said "thats gonna be you in a few hours" so i was pretty much loving that.. sean coming and me being all doped up and barely able to walk.. the kid looked like he fell off a cliff. he couldnt even look at me and he had drool ALL OVER his face! but i was suprisingly ok. when it was over i got up and wobbled to the mirror and a doctor came in and told me to sit down. grr..and he took away the mirror. but i saw my face.. it wasnt like the other kids.. but bleh. So sean and my mom helped me go to the car. and then we stopped at albertsons and saugus drugs to get some soft food and my perscription. yeah. sean is so sweet. we went to my house and its our 1 month "aniversary" i dont like that word but yeah its that day.. and lately.. we've been a little rocky but.. i cant deny what i feel. and i love him. so i wanted to tell him as soon as possible and in a certain way.. and it was pretty cool cuz it was on our 1 month day.. not because of it but it was cool that it happened like that. but i wanted to do it at night.. at the park preferably cuz my mom is so nosy. sean was worried last night that i would break up with him.. so i wrote 31 reasons why i love him on little hearts.. and on the back of them i wrote "i love you" in 31 different languages. and on the 31st balloon i wrote "i love you" and on the back i wrote "everything"and put them into balloons. i wanted the balloons to be brown and blue but my mom couldnt find packs with just brown or just blue.. but yeah i know sean loves guns.. so i was going to pin them up all around the park and have him shoot them and get the hearts like that.. at around 11-11:30pm and tell him i love him and such by 12.. today. but that wouldnt have worked anyways cuz his air soft gun doesnt hit balloons..lol yeah cuz i did ask him to bring the gun. and i poured out the balloons in my living room and he shot at one but it shot right back at him! OOPS! so hehehehe.. i had him sit on them muahahaha. all 31.. he liked it i think. well he did. it just sucks cuz i wanted to tell him.. but i couldnt because i could hardly say anything.. he kissed me but my lips were so numb... well the bottom one.. i felt the top but grr. numbness sucks. last night he could have kisssed me and I could kiss back and tell him i love you like a normal person :( haha he didnt realize that there were 31 balloons and aw he said "i still dont know what this is" he was pointing at the words on the back of each heart and i said that it was i love you in different languages.. i think he liked that. i hope so.. i was planning on telling him i love him in all those languages. i memorized most of them. but i couldnt. but it was good.. cuz sean is so sweet. yeah. he left right after that cuz he has alot to do before tomorrow. he dyed his hair a red based black. it looks really good.. he's so cute. i watched me, myself, and irene. good movie but waaaaaay too much cussing. like really... it was annoying. and then i felt like iw as about to fall asleep so i wanted to watch something i was familiar with so i wouldnt be missing out.. so i watched the notebook :( but i didnt want to miss it cuz its the bestest movie.. well girly movie. bestest. grr. it makes me cry. i hate that. i hate crying at movies. its so dumb. but i couldnt help it. grr. i want that.. not the confusion and the leaving for 7 years and the fiance' but everything else.. why am i so hungry? I've been eating and eating. soft foods just dont fill me up! i need meat! MEEEEEAT! or ice cream! K im gonna get ice cream. i talked to caitlin tonite on aim. she just imed me out of nowhere! I missed her! i miss all of those girls.. im gonna hang out with caitlin on the 12th and invited her to go with me to seans show and she said yeah. and im gonna ask all of the rest of them too.. OH! speaking of shows! bryan's show was tonight. oops i feel bad. i forgot about it but i couldnt have gone anyways. would have been fun tho.. alot of people i havent seen in a long time probably would have been there. bleh. i think thats it. Oh yeah.. tomorrow i have a doctor appointment at 3. yeah i know.. whats wrong with this girl? shes always at the doctors.. not really... just today and tomorrowwwwwwwww. Im getting an ultrasound.. on my chest... cuz i have lumps... in my chest. yeah... one side they hurt and one side they dont... well they said that if they hurt.. they are harmless. if they dont hurt... they could be cancerous.. SO the dorks checked the side that hurts... HELLO??? what about the other side? thats the part im concerned with... oi. so we'll see what happens. nothing will happen. just a check up.
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hey there, thx for reading my entry and the comment :) i didnt think any1 actually read them.. yer.. ill b okay i think. i just miss him so much sometimes. u didnt sound corny at all :) thankya
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and and and hehe thas so sweet what u did for ur bf :D how romantic, wish i could be bothered enough to do somefin like that. hope ur mouth is better (has it swollen up?? my friends cheeks were huge and turned blue lol) and good luck with ur checkup. im sure you'll be fine :)