oh yeah... it was weird. at church on wednesday... ryan hugged kim and then he hugged me. But he like hugged me all tight and kinda rocked and said "gosh, your so small" and put his head on my head. When he let go he realized putting his head on my head was a little awkward i guess... and he said.. your warm and smiled. cuz i was standing under one of those heating lamps. i found out that kim has a crush on ryan. but she doesnt want a relationship right now. neither does he so. i guess thats a no go for them. i just thought it was weird cuz. sally went out with ryan and andy. and kim went out with andy. i think it'd be almost creepy if kim went out with ryan. whats the deal with andy anyways? he isnt alll crazy cute like everyone thinks. I've never been attracted to him.. i think Im the only one. Gah.. ya know.. you go to sleep and you think "things will be better tomorrow" but ya know what? things arent better and Andres is still bugging me. grrr. if he doesnt so much as call me today... I am going to call him at freaking 3 in the morning and tell him that stuff. so that he'll be way to tired to respond and way to tired to really understand. and in the morning, it'll alll hit him at once... and maybe then he'll realize what a jerk he's being. blah. no. grrr. it doesnt matter. I'll just stop thinking. maybe call my friend kimmy h. from schoool, not kimmy b. from church. i havent hung out with that group for a long time. it'll be good.