HAHA hellagood! I thought that was a funny.

today was fun!

At 2am my brother called and I hadnt gone to bed yet cuz I couldnt sleep.Had another bad dream about the bad person. So I was just doing some HW. haha Im a loser. We talked a little and he had to go but said he'd call tomorrow... So he calls at 8 am. Ugh. But I am happy he called cuz I have been so scared lately. The crazy thoughts that enter my head are just maddness.. and i do that thing where I go "what if...?" and then I say NO! STOP! SHUT UP! STOP THINKING LIKE THAT! but of course you know once you pop the fun dont stop... or something. I wrote him like 5 letters all like 2 to 3 pages long and sent them all at once. Which is cutting back for me..usually they are 10 pages long.. so it took him a while to respond, but sheesh I love my brother. I really am lucky to have him. I dont know what I'd do without him. He always has something good to say. And encourages me and gives me hope.

at 12:30 I go to saugus to eat lunch with Spatula... I wanted to bring her pb and j but we have no bread... cept that gross wheat kind... yeah no. And then I thought PANCAKES! but my mom used all the bisquick... so I made popcorn and grabbed some capri sun and she seemed quite content with that. We went in the library to get her stuff and guess who was coming out at that EXACT moment?! Bookworm..and I said hi and he smiled and I think he said hi but he is so quite. We walked around school a bit. Then I got kicked out. haha. but I waited till after school and walked up the hill with Spatula and NinjaGirl and Bookworm...who was talking to Meatball. This girl who wrote him some letters about how she likes him I guess I dunno... and I dunno she is really intersting... I hope they are happy together. No really...but geesh she is like satonic and he's full on christian... no sense. NONSENSE.. so then we get to Spatula's house and its a good day of hanging out. I gave myself a mohawk all by myself (ok and Spatula helped a little) cuz Spatula was on the phone with GingerSnaps and I was bored and I wanted to anyways... it was fun. It looked sexy. I wanted her to spend the night and go to LA with me and my uncle in the morning but she couldnt do either cuz her dad is a nazi. at like 5 i said "I kinda wanna talk to IdiotDoer" so she just grabbed my phone and called him and handed me the phone.. and we talked and he told me to go to class on sat...tomorrow or today actually. and we'd hang out and such..woot. So I am gonna go to class tomorrow instead of LA.

Out of the blue at like 6 my friend FunnyPirate called me. He always does that. We dont talk forever and then "hey, wanna hang out?" he lives kinda far tho so its cool that he still keeps in touch. We're probably gonna hang out on Thursday. haha he is in a band. They are really good. Spatula! date my friend.. lol. ok ok enough of that.

So I took a shower to wash out all the gunk in my hair, holy man that stuff sucks. I washed my hair like 10 times and used so much shampoo and conditioner... my moms gonna be pissed. And its still kinda sticky feeling. but I like it.

hey.. so the whole ask and you shall recieve thing is SO true! New neighbors... two girls and an older brother:) In fact I think I saw 2 guys... but one could have been a friend. They're cute. sheesh who needs tv when u got a window? Thanks God.

goodnight world.