[484] So deep that it didnt even bleed

Feeling: busy
yesterday... after work i came home and took a nap! yay for naps. and then tim came over. we gots food and we watched mean girls at his house with his brother. aannnnddddd he got us tickets to inland invasion :) woot woot woot. so yeah thats good. i was talking to my mom in the car and.. i forget what i was gonna say after the dots cuz that was a couple days ago.... _____________________________________________ the last 3 days have been a blur. kinda the same thing. only not really. on tuesday i went with brett to visit his mother. He hasnt been there since she passed away 3 years ago and no one was going with him. so i went with him but it was closed. yeah so we're probably going to go again tomorrow.. which is today cuz its after 12. but yeah. thats after school. I dont have work tomorrow. Kelly and Jonathan mc farland said that this dude from church is selling his car.. so i might look into that. actually im gonna go over there at 7pm tomorrow to drive it and such. woot. but i dont really even want a car. cars are money eaters. I'd rather ride the bus or get a moped.. for now. i like this song... Hey there, I know it's hard to feel like I don't care at all Where you are and how you feel With these lights off as these wheels keep rolling on and on. (and on and on and on...) Slow things down or speed them up Not enough or way too much. (and on and on and on...) How are you when I'm gone? [Chorus:] And I can't make it on my own (And I can't make it on my own) Because my heart is in Ohio So cut my wrists and black my eyes (Cut my wrists and black my eyes) So I can fall asleep tonight, or die Because you kill me You know you do, you kill me well You like it too, and I can tell You never stop until my final breath is gone Spare me just three last words "I love you" is all she heard I'll wait for you, but I can't wait forever And I can't make it on my own (And I can't make it on my own) Because my heart is in Ohio So cut my wrists and black my eyes (Cut my wrists and black my eyes) So I can fall asleep tonight, or die Because you kill me You know you do, you kill me well You like it too, and I can tell You never stop until my final breath is gone You know you do, you kill me well You like it too, and I can tell You never stop until my final breath is gone (YOU...KILL...ME...WELL) So cut my wrists and black my eyes My final breath is gone So I can fall asleep tonight And I can't make it on my own (And I can't make it on my own) Because my heart is in Ohio So cut my wrists and black my eyes (Cut my wrists and black my eyes) So I can fall asleep tonight, or die Because you kill me You know you do, you kill me well You like it too, and I can tell You never stop until my final breath is gone You know you do, you kill me well You like it too, and I can tell You never stop until my final breath is gone went to church tonite. it was good. were done with that book so now we're gonna be going over the ten commandments.. well more like having discussions about them. so thats cool. yeah. hmm... i felt out of place. at church. it was weird. i sat alone and i dunno... right now i feel so distant from God... its my fault but blah. it was communion tonite and i always take it. but i couldnt tonite cuz i remember my mom saying not to take it if my heart isnt right.. we'll i dont even know what my heart is.. not that its not in a good place.. or not in a bad place.. i just dont even know. so thats probably a good indication that its bad. erg. We went to wendys afterwards. i miss that. havent done that in a while. timmy came and that was cool. he met people like jake and sal and don and such. i helped timmy study a little at my house. yeah.
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hehe i peed in ur bucket lol anyways i just wontd 2 say cool diary and i like that song 2- ohio is 4 lovers. hawthorne heights r kinda kool...... comment on mine?
hehe i peed in ur bucket lol anyways i just wontd 2 say cool diary and i like that song 2- ohio is 4 lovers. hawthorne heights r kinda kool...... comment on mine?