I am getting really sick of myself right now, and I'm sure Tim is beyond sick of it.. hearing about pregnancy crap when its so unlikely but I can't help it.. okay here are the things that make me think.. "possibly": 1. my boobs are HUGE! (for me at least) seriously I was looking at them in the mirror all day.. and when timmy came home he noticed right away.. he said something along the lines of woah those got bigger over night... and whatknot. it was pretty funny.. hee. 2. stomach aches that have nothing to do with lactose intolerance. I eliminated (for the most part) any milk factor that could potentially cause stomach problems in the morning but I still get HORRIBLE stomach aches right when i wake up in the morning that go sort of up and down until they are gone.. about an hour or 2 later. only in the mornings... HMM??? 3. I've been craving weird things.. like pickles... and some things i like seem really gross. and my smell has changed or something because certain smells make me sick... like the other day i made french toast and stuff for lunch and the smell was lingering in the air i guess. well it was dinner later and we got fast food and when we got back the smell of french toast and fast food mixed.. Timmy couldn't smell anything.. and I almost puked.. 4. Yesterday I was watching a tv show ok ok i watched Oprah.. lol... nothing else was on and it was about skin care and i found it interesting... well after watching i had to go to walmart anyways, so i picked up a few things.. cocoa butter being one of them... when i got home i realized... AH! cocoa butter?!?!?!?! that's what pregnant women put on their bellies to avoid stretch marks! a sign??? idk no.. maybe.. do i believe in signs? anyways.. ok this one is stretching it a little bit... but... 5. this morning i woke up and looked at my face. I had some acne for a few days and was seeing if it cleared up.. it did.. but i looked closer and my cheeks close to my nose... my pores were HUGE! almost like an orange peel texture ish. Never happened before! so i look it up... and the big causes were stuff like age and sun.. but I'm young and I hardly ever get sun exposure.. compared to most and i wear sunscreen... so i was like whats the deal.. and the OTHER contributors were.... PREGNANT! and birth control pills... i know.. maybe its the pills? but I've been taking pills for a long time and its never done that.. but i couldn't be because, not to gross everyone out but he pulled out.. before u know.. so... but can you get pregnant from the stuff that comes out before... AH! its times like these when i wish i went to that sex ed class.. but no... i couldn't because i couldn't even THINK of the word sex or I'd die! stupid mother. its not like she substituted the class with a "talk" of some sort.. I'm just supposed to KNOW or maybe she thought GOD would tell me one day.. she's out talking about sex to every other boy and girl on the planet.. (she was an abstinence speaker person thing and went to high schools to speak about abstinence)but she didn't think to ever talk to me about the important stuff.. just useless crap like u can get std from LOOKING at someone wrong. Oh and the kicker.. "sex only hurts the first time"! Ef the moron who ever got THAT to circulate.. absolutely the worst piece of bs ever said out loud. anyways... back to the main topic.. no condom was used but i really doubt i am pregnant because [see above] and i was on the pill even tho i took them sporadicly throughout the day and missed a few and took them the next day sort of thing.. i called facey and asked to speak to someone and they left a message for the last person i saw... i just wanted to ask a freaking question. i hate them. and then i called the pharmacy because maybe they know something and I've read articles saying that the pill has no effect on a baby and wont cause birth defects if i am pregnant... but what about the morning after pill? isn't that equivalent to like 4 bcps? so i call the pharmacist and he says I should stop taking bcps in case i am, because they COULD cause birth defects or an ABORTION! so who is right? the many medical sites with articles from doctor whats it and who face or this pharmacist guy..? i didn't mention the pulling out part, i just said sex.. is it fair to call it sex if he didn't finish inside? idk. but i did tell him that i took a pregnancy test but since "it" was like a week ago.. maybe it was too soon? and he said it was probably too soon and to stop taking the pills and retest in a few days.. BAH! i guess it wouldn't be the end of the world to stop taking bcps for a few days.. I'm confooosed :/ --------------------------------------- so other than THAT... I woke up at 7:30 when timmy left for work.. i was going to go to sleep but i wanted my phone near me in case tim called.. but it was off so i went to find the charger and looking for it woke me up but.. its so boring. no tv, no video games... what's a girl to dooo? i would take a walk but i don't know where to go. i have too big of a headache to read/study. i don't want to work out right now. and for some reason i am really hungry and don't feel like eating. nothing to do :[