i think my mom gave me the flu. I have been waking up with headaches and stomach aches. mostly stomach aches. like im gonna puke all over u. i think i gave it to tim. he felt awful :( i wen to church today. It was ok. Tim Salz spoke and it was good. PM kinda ruined it for me. He had this weird look and tone in his voice like he was talking right to me and usually when i feel like a pastor is talking to me.. its in a good way. not this time. i swear he looked me straight in the eyes 3-4 times at some parts and it made me kinda angry. but its ok. afterwards I saw Donivan :) he is my little angel. who is way taller than me. I love my Donivan. I havent seen him in soo long but it doesnt matter. nothing changes I'll always love him like family. the mother, heather and myself went to the crazy chicken after. i hate the crazy chicken. i asked my mom a question and she got all stupid and flipped out. and i was like. dude. calm down. and she got all crazy and left. Then heather and i had appointments at Davids bridal in Northridge. We tried on a LOT of dresses. I hated them all. She found one. She's not even engaged yet and she has a wedding dress picked out. She's been dating him 2 months! the wedding wouldnt eevn be till next year! but she lives in hungary so yeah. but still it sucks cuz here i am looking all over and she's done in less than 2 weeks. when igot home today around 6, me and timmy kinda had a thing. not a fight. fighting requires actualy words. but i got mad and left. when i got back he followed me to the computer room and apologized. and we talked some. not a lot. but it was a start. i mean. really.. tim has made such strides in the communication department. and earlier today it was like old communication habbits and i couldnt take it. but he's going through some stuff right now and I understand. Plus he's sick. and Im sick. and we we're pouty and grumpy and gay. did u know cold compresses and lavendar essential oil helps headaches? mhmm. tim sent an add request to one of his friends on myspace, and they denied him. he felt really bad. cuz they used to be really good friends.. i feel the same with jenae and stuff. i sent her a message and she never replied. i think she made her profile private after that. lol i never thought that would happen. she said her #1 goal in life "would be to know jeni belty forever" i was always a good friends to her. and she was to me well. until davey. i dont know what happened. its just sad that people dont have the decency to SAY something to the person or explain why they are being jerks. they're cowards I guess. I've been afraid to say somethinglike that on here.. hoping maybe someday she'd change her mind and want to be my friend again, but reality sunk in i guess and i just dont care anymore. hopefully tim isnt too upset about it. the guy sounds like a tool anyways.