oatmeal makes me happy. I wonder if Ian will still hang out with me now that he has a job. That's what jobs do. I should be cleaning and packing dammit. Oh to have friends that live close.. to have friends at all.. I'm getting anxious. I'm trying to focus on the positive things that Colorado has to offer.. but as it gets closer all i can think about is the people and the conversations and the awkwardness and the reunion and aaron and trying to be myself without being ridiculous.