looking for a job is pointless right now. I guess the best thing to do is just.. learn stuff. blah. I hate myself for hating myself -Bayside people don't understand. I'm glad Tim is such a good listener. He doesn't tell me what I've already heard 100 times by 100 different people who don't know what it means to listen. Don't ask what's wrong if you're not going to listen. And don't put in your opinion if I didn't ask for it. Tim has said things before without being asked but he knows when its appropriate and when i just want to be heard. i wish everyone was smart enough to get it.. but i guess that's too much to ask. i hate people --------------------------- today didn't start off to great. but i feel a lot better right now.. we talked about everything. he knows how to listen and talking back is things like "i know" and "I'm sorry" and "I love you" not "well its because you need to do this" or "you didn't do that".. we talked about who does do that. and why i don't need to worry about it anymore. We went to see Year One at the $3 theater. so funny. i needed to laugh. it got bad reviews for some reason. probably all the religions poles who don't have a sense of humor. its like, take it with a grain of salt.. they aren't putting down God or Christianity... its just goofing off. If that's even the reason it got bad reviews. who knows.