UUUHHGG! SO long without a SitD update! what is wrong with me????

I like my job. Its great. But its also soooo stressful. I'm exhausted. I am learning a lot tho and its only been 2 weeks. or 3. I'm loosing track of time.

Got my nails done. look great... but i forgot what a pain in the ass it was to type with them... efficiency or femininity? hmm....

I feel bad for Casey.... this girl he really liked totally screwed him in the ass. He deserves better he's the best.

OMGSH! BREAKING NEWS!!!! Timmy got a secod interview at American Honda. Monday at 2. Its been 3 weeks since his first interview so I think this is a good sign.. they were interviewing others.. and then the boss has been really busy.. I think its gonna be good! Im so proud of him :) things have been going so well lately its almost... like... when you do a double take just to make sure you saw what you saw... i have to double take things... like.. wait this shouldn't be going this good.. o wait it is.. nice.

Met with the psychiatrist to reevaluate medication. no more prozac.. on laxapro for 2 weeks now.. he gave me a 2 week pack. and i was supposed to come it in 2 weeks to follow up. but i missed my apt. so.. i missed a dose. and that next day... SUCKED. i was miserable, anxious.. emotional. It was bad. and then i met with him the next day and he gave me more and its been fine. btw... kari was wrong about antidepressants being addictive and telling me to get on anxiety pills... he said its the opposite.. and thats why he has me on a combination not just anxiety.. i read they can be as addicting as heroine. yikes.

DOR lady finally answered my effing phone call. she said i was elligable for the program. so we're going to go over my plan on Monday at 11:30.

Psychologist called today. we talked about my apt with my psychiatrist and the DOR lady.

I wanna see Alice in Wonderland :{

But i gotta go grocery shopping, shopping for clothes, and clean the house and blah blah blah.

Manuel is gonna come stay with us for a few days like next week or something. Can't wait. i miss him. We always have fun times. even if we don't really do anything.

uhg.. so my job. its good right.... mostly. there are so things that are... iffy. The company is a small multimedia place that produces all sorts of stuff. from car ads like honda in simi and web sites. well.. one of their main clients is building/maintaining a web site (and everything in between) for this guy.. the president of an organization that wants to separate church and state. well.. its fine. i get the point. i do.. equalty is good. and religions all deserve the same rights within the government and whatever..... but being a christian, sometimes... i feel really awkward. most of the time its fine. but sometimes i feel like they bash christians or target them. and here i am putting in news articles to this website about that kinda stuff. i dont disagree with the organization.. but i find it hard to be involved when one of the next things coming up is making a music video for this lady who wrote a song for the organization. the first line says something like "for the love of jesus he'll take down any man" talking about christian soldiers.it just doesn't feel right. but i need a job.. but i am a christian. but its not an anti christian organization. but its not nice to christians. but but but.. uhg. too confusing to think about anymore. I mean there are christian supporters... so.. i mean.. thats a good sign right? I just dont wanna be like shooting in the wrong basket, you know? Not that it should even be thought of like that. there is no winner or loser. we should all be entitled to our own opinion. and that is their point.. so. idk.

anyways gotta go....