oi. yesterday was an ok day. monday. i woke up and we have no juice so andres took me to trader joes to get those yummy juices and a big bottle of strawberry kiwi yum yum. my brother will be home soon. i dont know the exact day. but soon. like in 10 days maybe kinda almost? hehe he hasnt seen my hair. that'll will be fun. oi i need to do christmas shopping. oi oi oi. i got my paycheck yesterday.gah. i dont even want to talk about it. but all that work is not even worth 1 week of what was on that paycheck... and its for 2 weeks. i guess cuz i didnt have alot of hours. but still. yeah, but I should be getting twice as much next paycheck. still barely anything but o well. i am going to try hard to find a job today. i need to cuz this is crazy. i need a new bra. and socks. and shoes. im always losing socks. stuff like that is like only around like a dollar at my work, well not shoes but under things and such. I might go there after school or something. _______________________________________ so Im back. went to school and stuff. hehe it was fun. i was typing up an essay on the computer and whenever someone would sharpen their pencil, the screen would get all jacked up. it mad me smile. nick was there. he didnt say why he didnt come that day. i said "what happened last week? did you die?" all he said was almost so I guess he didnt feel like elaborating. so I left and stuff anf came home and... ok Im about to talk about a disgusting girly thing... but its my diary and i can do and write whatever i want in this thingy.. and you dont have to read.. your choosing to so dont get all weird on me cuz its your own faults... im talking to boys mostly cuz they get all dumb when you bring up the p word.. well... I had my p word a couple weeks ago. and I dunno but um for the past 3 or something days... Ive been seeing some blood and im not on my p word. Im thinking thats not exactly a good thing. I dont know. I know Im not pregnant cuz i havent had sex or anything and you skip your p word not get an extra one.. so maybe i hurt myself or something but i dont remember that. i dunno, whatever it is better go away fast cuz im not telling my mom and im not going to a doctor. cuz doctors scare me. especially when it has to do with your unspeakable parts. oi. i am gonna play drums now. maybe I'll write in this later. ew. dont buy watermelon juice from trader joes. it taste like butt. andres.. i dont know what happened last night. cuz you said something but im not sure if you meant it or not cuz i didnt make sure.. thats why i havent called, if you were wondering. but you can call me. I'll most likely be at home the rest of the day. nothing else to say. _________________________________________ well. I cleaned my room.. sorta. I saw some of saving private ryan with andres. but we didnt finish cuz i had to be home at 9. im not doing good. that p word problem. well if it even is the p word. well... things hurt. and sting. and theres more than before. and its evil. i dont know whats going on down there but its annoying. and uncomfortable. My mom asked me about my fast. like what Ive been reading and i told her and she said i should read about the women in the bible. she said im confused with what to do about boys and part of how you find out what to do with that is finding out how to be a woman of God first. well, i kinda knew that. but yeah im gonna do that tonite, and read my book too. she said your smooth.. and good with talkin. you go with me, to the saddie hawkins.... Ive been trying to find cool drum tabs. but most of the songs i want dont have drumb tabs, only guitar tabs. its gay. bruce willis was the voice of the baby in look whos talking! thats so gayishly awesome... and stuff. tomorrow should be a good day. i gots to do homework. wow Im gonna be busy tonite. its almost time for brett to call. im tired. I'll see ya in a walla walla!