today was fun and good and weirdish at times.
So I took rafael to work this morning. last nite he said he wasnt taking advantage of me and such but when he left, a lighter fell out of his pocket. i guess he still smokes. whatever. and he expects me to believe his story about it being his friends. first if that was true.. thatw ouldnt be the second thing out of his mouth to me.. its not that big of a deal.. like "hey i went sky diving" its like "oph i lost my friends lighter" gay and second, i am so naive in so many things. for once i am putting my foot down. for once. and im not taking this bullcrap. cuz its bullcrap. i carry around lighters.. for my eyeliner. so unless he is leading a double life and he needs the lighter to heat his eyeliner.. he's taking the bus.
in other news... I feel like crying all the time. is that weird? like.. well not all the time. just since yesterday with the whole fight with jason. he really scared me. and i feel weird. like i need to cry but i cant cuz its dumb. i dont understand why it matters so much to me. i mean it was yesterday.. let it go right? oi.
Went to the movies with caitlin that was really fun. we saw prime. good movie. kinda sucky ending but then.. when i think about it. its for the best. lol. i hate uma therman tho. so gross and manly and and and old and not sexy nope. not at all. ok a lil. best line ever "his penis is so beautiful i just want to knit it a little hat" lol. o man. on the way home we got stalked by ugly boys! they were weird. they followed us for soo freaking long.. like seriously. i was speeding to get away and swerving in and out of cars and these boys followed us all the way from whites to.. up bouquet.. and telling us to pull over and being gross. and we were scared yup. gosh. little hint for those of you who dont know.. if they speed away... they probably arent interested. just a thought.
aaaaaaand timmy makes me happy. we had fun today. nite. day. and nite. we went to the mall and i got a pineapple-strawberry smoothie thing. and he got a cinnabon and some orange drink thing. and we saw the elmers. and they saw me and tim kiss. lol. and it was awkward.
I decided not to tell tim the "thing" or whatever.. its ridiculous and not a big deal and i need to get over it and push it out of my head already. i need to push alot out of my head actually. and and and yeah.
tim asked me to read the bible with him. i want to. but i dunno. i havent in so long. i love God and I never turn my back on my faith.. but i definately ignore it and put it off and sometimes i think thats worse. i feel like a hipocrite.
its cold in here.
people liked my hair today. i hope it grows longer sometime soon..
Tims friend Beatriz is so nice!:) she actually wants to get to know me... this is new! lol. i already knew brett and andres' friends and seans friends only wanted to get to know him lol and and tims friends are actually cool.. yup. cool friends are cool. so what right? so his friends like me. but. i guess you dont know how to really appreciate things like that unless you exerience what its like without it. OH. tims brother likes me tooo :) he talks to me. i thought he didnt like me at first but yeah he invited us to a all american rejects show. woot.
was so tired. but now.. im good.
what else? i cant think of anything.
i am talking to shelbys twin. no really.. i am.
you smell like... FANDANGO!
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