What is with this oral fixation? Its worse when I read... I either wind up with all my nails chewed off or my lip bit to pieces! ok not pieces.. but its hurty.. chewing gum doesn't help. especially since its crossed over into my subconscious.. and I've been waking up with fat lips :[ extra stress? anxiety? idk.. what else is new? lol the other day I forgot i was making a cup of noodles.. and then i went to read on the couch with Timmy while it cooled off. and then i started singing the chicken noodle soup song absentmindedly.. (i sometimes randomly sing this tune from baby bottle pop with the words chicken noodle soup.. don't ask me why, idk! lol).. and it made me remember i was making cup of noodles.. and I was like "OH! chicken noodle soup!" tim thought it was so funny.. and now he sings it to me all the time.. but as usual you had to be there... i think we're gonna postpone the Missouri trip and only go to Colorado as intended.. its just way too expensive right now. I mean we can afford it but why spend soo much when we could go a different time for less? way less.. and we wouldn't feel so rushed either... although i told Tim... if its anything like the last visit.. I'm renting a car and driving to Missouri for the rest of the vacation. he said he would go with me. Oh how husbandy. I like when he protects me from suck-ness. i finished the draft of midnight sun. it was only like half the book.. i was very unsatisfied.. i went back to her site to find out more info.. maybe there was a second link that had the rest of the book.. but instead i read her blog that clearly stated her disapproval for anyone to read midnight sun before it was published. since it was stolen.. now i feel like a schmuck.. i was so excited to find it i didn't read that part.. grr. i dunno if that would have stopped me though.. i hope she finishes it soon. Edwards perspective is so much more intriguing and there's so much more to his side of the story. the lump feels bigger.. its just my head playing tricks on me!.. but I'm still annoyingly aware of its presence. ignore it and it will go away :) blah.