so today was long. wow. I rolled out of bed and scratched my head at about 8:30 in the am. went to school at 9. I got on the computer at school cuz i emailed my homework to myself. the seat next to me was empty for a while and then some guy came and sat there not really working just talking to all his friends. I got up to get a pen. and when i came back he was like "there you are!" and i was like "yeah,here i am?" and he was talking to me and stuff.. bugging me really cuz i was really trying to finish my homework fastly like and go. and it was distracting. he told me i looked like a stoner.. and said he was a stoner.. and i asked him if that was a compliment cuz it sure didnt sound like it. he told me my hair was short and sexy... and then he started asking me if i wanted to make out after school and if I am into younger guys. i told him no. and then i left. God confuses me sometimes. Cuz i have been praying that he would keep away any one I am not supposed to be with or who isnt right for me. And then that dude hits on me like crazy.. and i was like... what the hecK? cuz i know that guys wasnt right for me at all and yet after my prayers and such God allowed him to do that... oi. i am confused cuz it feels like God says "yeahi am here and im listening, i just dont care" and i know thats not true and i shouldnt be tyiping this. i just get frustrated some times. i get frustrated when i dont know exactly what hes saying... which is like never. but anyways. I finished a packet but i still need to do a test and OFL was closing for lunch so my mom picked me up and took me to panda for some eats. my fortune cookie called me fat. no really, it said "work onimproving your exercise routine" Hmm. its good advice for a jeni. I never exercise anymore. Im gettin a jeni gut. ..but you know what haha I cant believe Im gonna say this but... i like my butt. haha. cuz the main thing.. or the only thing i like about myself is my hair.. until i choppeed it off. and Ive been feeling icky and fat and ugly and then i was in the bathroom tonite and i was walking out the door and i turned to throw away my trash and i glanced at my butt and i was like.. hey butt, i like you. we're hommies now. well not really, more like aquaintances... second thought.. maybe its just the effects of my pants.. they are light lime green with no back pockets. pocketless green pants will do that to a butt. its all in my head. so forget what i said. whats with the rhyming? Im jumping ahead of myself.. how does one actually do that? its kinda impossible... kinda. went back to school. take a test. passed. I am going to ask adrian kinsella, PDK's wife to take my senior pictures. Cuz i hear she's the best and PDK loves me. Heather picked me up from school and we went to the mall. we were christmas shopping. I didnt get anything but my nina bea gave me $40 to put towards christmas gifts so thats cool. I found some cool ideas for my brother and mom. But Im not sure yet. We talked alot. I saw so many cool things while shopping... but all for me and i cant spend on me.. but! I can make a christmas list and hope santa will bring me presents. hehe yay... I actualy have a wish list this year... NOT in any order at all... 1. dork glasses cuz mine brokeded or any other cool kinda glasses 2. cute leg warmers. like in the 80's. cmon now... 3. a bike 4. a video editing program 5. a digital camera 6. a video camera 7. a digital video camera haha 8. those round chinese lanterns 9. a couple cymbols 10. another kick so I an be a double kick drummer 11. this cute has from that store next to bombay i think and it has hats and things and it was like grey and other colors and its cute 12. this one hat at JC penny and it is like a burray but with a bill and it actually fits my head cuz they never fit the jeni's head and its also greyish. what can i say? I like grey. 13. get my nails done.. i know, how girly.. but but but my fingers hurt 14. bass guitar 15. guitar 16. strobe lights 17. a pony. i saw one at kb tonys. it moved! and it was pink! 18. a mini pool tabke 19. one of those raised bunk bed things without the bottom bunks so i can put my computer underneath 20. convince my mom to let me putmy computer in my room... cuz its mine. and that is just how things should be. 21. rollerbaldes 22. blank Cd's 23. concert tickets 24. justin timberlake.. meet him. 25. new comfy shoes for work 26. a new bag cuz my backpack keeps breaking. 27. A cell phone 28. eyeliner and lip gloss 29. a bunny rabbit so i can name him jeffrey or bradley or milton bradley. or or or something. 30. a firepole in my closet... cuz thatd be coool 31. a dishwasher! 32. another place to live 33. bigger um... you know. shut up its my list! 34. yogs things... like a ball.. a matt. stretchy things. they have a whole buncha cool yoga junk at my work but but but i never have time to look through it. 35. photo albums are always nice 36. posters or cut outs of cool people... justin timberlake. charlie chaplin. brody armstrong. gwen steffani. nikole kidman. topher grace. james valentine. rivers coumo. paul from puddle of mudd. ewan mc gregor. audrey hefburn or however u spell it... lots of others. 37. a ride in a hot air balloon.... oi. that would be so awesome. 38. a metronome that beeps not clicks... cuz i have one that clicks and its hard to hear it over my drums. 39. trip to new york! 40. that iron on paper stuff. you can print pictures on it and iron them onto your clothes. its cool. want some. 41. a little hand held recorder thing so i can record my mom when she's being eveil and paly it back to her. 42. a wet suit and a surf board and an instructer to teach me to surf 43. a punching bag and kick boxingness lessons 44. a car 45. another job, including or instead of this job 46. that God would show or tell me what Im supposed to do about everything 47. a mini refridgerator to put in my room 48. a mini microwave 49. one of those large pics of like a waterfall or somethig and it looks like theres actually water but its just the lighting. but not really cuz im thinking of getting one of those for my brother cuz its so cool. and i hve no clue what else to get him. 50. board shorts... i tried to find some and they told me that they dont sell them in winter... GAH? ok thats about it. for now. i think. what else? um. i went to work and there is a new girl so I am not "the new girl" anymore. nope, they call me jeni. she helped mein kids but since sam wasnt there we had to cover men's too. anna the manager wasnt there today, instead it was this guy and he told me that tomorrow there some people coming to look at the store or something so we have to clean up really good. monica is not monica haha. her name is monique.i kept thinking her name was monica, but yeah she wasnt there today. and neither was ceasar. but matthew talked to me alot so that helped ease my boredum. getting to know him a lil more. he's funny. poor guy still like rap tho. it was funny cuz everytime i was putting something away and he walked by i would drop something. it was a curse or soemthing. and it got to the point where he noticed and said "aim them away from your face" cuz they always landed in my face. i finally did it right and he said he was proud. haha. and then the new girl dropped somethng and i didnt feel so bad. cuz i am so clumbsy. its frightening. I thought the new girl was nice looking.. but she was kinda a snob until the very end when she lightened up. It was funny cuz she told me when she was going to the bathroom and on her break.. she doesnt need to tell me... im just an employee... it was funny tho. abram is another guy who works there. talked to him during break. he has a kid and an ex wife and he is only like 22. whoa. they take all his money out of his check except a penny to pay for child support. so its like he is working for nothing. almost. i feel bad for him. I am so mad. i cant find my friggen wallet. grr. i need my discount card. i found the cutest skirt for my cousin corina. its red with roses and sparkly. I'd wear it over jeans. oi. i would have got it for me but its a size 12 and im not a 12 in girls.sometimes Im like a 16 in girls. if that. since that guy was there instead of anna.. he was like a nazi and made us clean the whole store like crazy.. usually we pick up as much as we can before 10:30-11 but this guy didnt let us go until it was all picked up and organized. we left about 12:30. my feet hurt. Definately calling in sick tomorrow. have a drum lesson at noon. woot, cant wait. um... my mom just walked out here and stood there for a minute in the kitchen and then she said "its almost 2" and i said i know Im getting off soon and she said that she just had the weirdest dream. and i was like o. and she said "about you and andres. it was disturbing" she said it was so weird she couldnt go back to bed for a while. and then she walked away. yeah, her just saying that is weird. hmm. i wonder what she dreamt of anyways. crap. i havent gotten a white elephant gift yet. poo. need to do that before tomorrrow nite. or tonite since its already 2 in the am. Im getting reeeally used to only 4 - 5 hours of sleep nowadays. its weird. but since i cant talk to andres or brett and i dont have any friends cuz im a loser nd i really dont know why a guy would like me at all... what was my point? o... i am always on this computer cuz i cant seem to tear myself away until the weee hours of the nite. and when i do go to bed it takes a while and i pften wake up in the middle of the nite. well thats not ass common as of recently. but yeah.. i think i might get 7 or 8 hours of sleep tonite! that'll be good. i wanna take a bubble bath.. its been forever since i did that. yeah. put that one my christmas list, bubble bath! wooo. but for now... i will stink. YAY! hehe i love this song. butterfly by crazytown. cuz theres a part where he says "we're like sid and nancy" so awesome. sooo awesome. i should go. gone.