Whoa. Obama won! I am a lot more excited then I thought I would be actually.. it sort of took me by surprise. Because really.. me and tim have been swaying back and forth the whole election, all the way into the parking lot to vote...! we finally decided.. in the words of SNL.. "a vote for McCain is a vote for George Bush!".. lol and Will Ferrel acting as Bush saying "Think of this face when you go out and vote!" lol. I know its supposed to just be funny.. but its really.. kinda true. I can't even imagine voting any other way in hindsight.. And honestly.. no offense bush and mccain.. i just can't stand the thought of being run by another dumb ass. sorry... but these guys can't even speak properly... Just think of the debates and how many times mcCain had to remember he was on TV not a barBQ and running for the presidency. I mean seriously. Even when he has speeches planned out and memorized, he gets fumbled on his words and stammers through out.. Obama always flowed with ease. I dunno, might be a stupid thing to remember when deciding but its not the "reason" for my vote. it was mostly because i think he actually has a better economic plan than McCain, i think he said it best when he said McCain's housing proposal would just be putting a bandaid on the situation. I don't know if he'll fix things soon or in his term, but i think it will be better in the long run. And history shows, the economy is usually better when a democrat is in the white house. In the beginning his views of abortion really turned me off, but its legal... and not voting for someone because they believe something thats already been decided.. i just think theres things that hadn't been decided that can change.. so why focus on the things that right now, I'm not able to change? Stop making my vote about 1 particular issue, and see the big picture... and that's why I finally decided to vote for Obama.. and it was really unattached at the time. but seeing the news.. watching history... I feel really connected. i feel like i was heard and the majority of this country agreed with me. I don't know, that might not mean a lot to some people, but for the last.. LONG TIME.. I've been feeling pretty unattached to uhm. just about everything.. so its nice. Although I do think they are going a tad overboard with the whole "first black president" thing... since he is only 6% black.. it is still amazing though. And as corny as it sounds, it is crazy how far this country has come. And I'm glad I was here to make history. my vote will be published in books forever. or until there are no more books.. eek. And that's pretty cool. So anyways. Congratulations Obama, may you fulfill the very high expectations you have set before yourself with the same eloquence and determination you carried with you throughout your campaign. In other news, my Timmy went to Honda school this week. He was going to drive everyday.. but he decided that'd be crazy.. especially since they reimburse you for staying in a hotel.. aaaaaand he took me a long with himm. It was pretty cool.. it wasn't just one little room.. it was a 2 bedroom suite with a full kitchen and living room. it was pretty nice. someone needs to rethink the decor but.. it was way nicer then any hotel we've stayed at before. Timmy said they were so nice to him even tho he was late.... o man was he late. lol. he thought it started on Tuesday... but it started Monday.. so instead of going to Torrance he went to work... so he had to drive back, pick me up, pack, and drive to Torrance. It was funny cuz sometimes he calls to wake me up at like 10. that morning I said "make it 11" and I get about a gazillion calls at 10 and I'm so annoyed... ok it was just 3 but if Timmy calls more than 3 times, its important, so like a normal person i put away my selfishness of wanting to sleep, and answered... and as always Timmy trumps my bad mood with good news... Oh so the perfect time to get away. The school starts at 9am and we got there at 12:30ish. instead of a full week, this time it was 3 days cuz of some.. thingy.. i forget actually. they really liked him too. one of the instructor guys working with him knew he had learned what he knows hands on.. and hadn't went to school or had any formal training.. and he told Timmy that he can see by his answers that he really knows what he is doing and "not to fill your head" but he's going to do really good. you can't fill timmy's head. its impossible. I already know timmy is the best at what he does.. especially at his age and for his lack of formal training.. but its nice when other people reaffirm that for him... i can see how sometimes it can just seem like i have to say that because I'm his wife sort of thing. even tho its never like that, but i feel like that sometimes tooo. like he can tell me 100 times my hair looks nice but if a complete stranger says it once, i suddenly believe it.. cuz i'ma dumbieee. in other otherrrrer news... I am content. even though it was bothering me pretty much up until a few hours ago.. for the time being i am content knowing that Timmy and I are the only people on this earth that will ever know how horrible he is. How evil. twisted. manipulative. crazy. hypocritical. etc. oh etc.... he is. (you couldn't even imagine what i know of this person. his dirty little secrets he'd kill to have kept)but that really is ok. its just one more thing connecting us, me and timmy.. that has nothing to do with him. its one more thing to make us stronger. one more thing to laugh at. well eventually. it doesn't matter what some people think i feel about them.. because I know and Timmy knows how I truly feel about them, how I think they are nothing but words and lies and evil and etc and how I feel as close as i could get to hating someone... about them. How they could do and be a way for no reason, for fun.. to pass time.. when i just don't even know anyone or of anyone who is that heartless and evil. and how THAT is where the anger comes from. not from my "feelings" about this person, but from my feelings about myself. I didn't deserve it. Tim didn't deserve it. But we will move on and recover, he will live with this for the rest of his sorry life. and btw Tim brought this up to me a few days ago and I think he makes a very good point, how creepy is it that he does what he does? i was a step away from a restraining order for so many years.. just think of someone with a restraining order, or just your typical stalker and then ask them to be a private investigator.. give them a gun... and a badge... and you have creepy and wrong all mixed in one. thats what Timmy thinks anyways, and i agree. uhg he is truly sick. In sad news :[ Something is wrong with my Jefferton... he appears fine.. except every so often he gets this weird twitch in his head.. and he's a little more idk.. strange than usual.. not bad just strange. he's lovable.. when he scratch his head it doesn't twitch, and he seems to like that also. we're going to take him to the vet to get it checked out. i was reading some stuff and if its what i think it might be then its treatable. but still :[