wow. long time no entryness. um. well. lots to say. I guess I will just tell of all the little and big events that occured since the last entry.... my thanksgiving was gay. my mom was mad at me all day for nothing. I hate when she yells at me infront of people and i didnt deserve it. or even when i do, hate that too. and then she acts like nothing is wrong and wants me to go bowling and she wonders why i said no.... hellllllooooooo? like i would want to spend another minute with her when shes like that. no thanks. this thanksgiving, i was thankful that she gave up and left me home. I dont know what day it was but I met adrianna. kinda sorta. that nite that i went to dinner with andres and his mom and grandpa we were crossing the street to go to his car and adrianna and her friend were walking by and andres got all crazy weird and they stopped and he stopped right in front of me and i was like "um, hello?" and i poke out from behind and they are all just staring at eachother and her friend was like "arent you going to introduce us?" and he goes "oh, this is jeni" and i said hi. but i felt dumb so I didnt say anything else. then he friend said things were weird so they were gonna go. good choice friend, cuz it was weird. that was an interesting nite. yesterday, andres told me that adrianna broke up with her boyfriend. and, welll nvm. So during that walk to andres' work that one time, I felt like I should finally go thru with this whole stupid waiting thing and figure stuff out. last nite brett really suprised me by saying that he couldnt talk to me anymore until i figure things out. i asked him how long and he said "more than a week or a couple of months". i asked whats the most time and he said "never". and its hard to think of not talking to him ever again. cuz he said that he would always be my friend no matter what. and i told him that but he said it was too hard and he cant handle all this. and i dont blame him. i would probably do the same thing... but not really. i dont really know. but I'd like to think I would remain his friend because thats what we always said we'd do. always. those conversations took a long time. and i ended up going to bed around 5. I think I was crying from 10 to 2 and then to sleep. a couple days ago I had a fight with my mom and ended up at andres house again. I was only looking to get away for a day. butit turned into a couple days. cuz she told me to leave. but things are ok now i guess. Today I went to work at 9 am. when i got there ceaser goes "did ya miss me?" he says that every time i see him. monica wasnt working. i was just putting those size things on the girls clothes and then jose asked me to work in the stock room. time flew by fast cuz ceaser was in there. and he talks allllll the time. he is either singing or humming or whistling or talking crap. funny kid. went on break and back to the stock room and it went by even faster than before. ceaser called me something. i asked him what it means but he didnt tell me. it starts kinda with a b i think and ends with an a or something and has an n. its a short word.. benta? i cant remember and thats not even a word but if you have any ideas... tell me cuz im a curious little monkey. you know what? for all you losers who like the movie dirty dancing havana nites.. (im one of those losers!!!) when I saw that movie I thought that the guy looked kinda like brett.. and ceaser kinda looks like that guy kinda too but i swear if u blended ceaser and bretts faces together... youd have the dude from havana nites, cuz brett has his features mostly and then ceasers acent and personality... add in bretts dancing and valla. its crazy. sorry these are the things i think in my spare time. I also thought that the girl monica looks alot like that girl from pretty in pink.. no not molly, the other one. the older one... only shes younger. nvm. after work I went to the bank to deposit a check and get some mulla. but NO! NO mulla for el jeni! GAH! the stupid teller said that my mother is the holder and i am just beneficiary... I am not seeing the benefits of that deal... so my mom came down cuz she was going to anyways and we were going to open my own account in my name and stuff but i didnt have my drivers license with me. gah. so we are going back later. So after tthat I will be able to get money and then buy my pictures. Its gonna be kinda weird tho. cuz the first pictures are of me and brett and then in the middle its just me and the last pictures are of andres and me and stuff. hmm. gah. weird. I am watching what not to wear... well my mom is. but i kinda like this show sometimes. the girl is so funny. she reminds me of me. she's so sarcastic and shes funny and tom boyish. um what else to say.. oh. yeah. i was thinking. in order for this to work.. and for me to stay on track and not go stupid again and just follow thru i am going to read my bible or pray every time i think of brett or andres. or even ryan. and i will post what i am reading in here cuz that way i will know when im behind. k. wwell the devil.. i mean my mom is yelling at me. so i shall return to this Jeffrey in no time. Oh, Jeffrey is the computer. I named him Jeffrey cuz I felt it suited him. say goodnite Jeffrey... nvm its only 3:30. __________________________________________ ok so here i am again. I spent the whole day with my mom. it wasnt that bad. we went back to the bank and opened up my account and a checking account even tho i dont really need one right now. And then she dropped me off at savon to pick up my pics but they arent done. even tho i dropped them off on saturday or maybe even friday and its like monday... grrr. and then i went to ross to buy a CD case that holds 272 cd's. woot. but Monica told me not to buy it cuz she has the exact same one. so she's gonna give that to me cuz she just got a new one. woot. after that we were on our way home but we got hungry. I got a panini and brocoli soup. the soup wasnt my cup of tea... cuz it was soup. but the panini was delish. Tomorrow is school and then best buy has this job fair thing tomorrow. Im thinking I will go cuz best buy is better than ross. well, anything is better than ross. and then work at 7pm tp 11pm. I see or at least talk to andres everyday. i havent done either today. this is ridiculous. Im alreasy starting to miss him? de ja vou? what is with this crazy nonsense!!??!?! hmm. my tummy hurts. I had zours. I saw my old friend brian dagget at albertsons. i used to like him in 9th grade. for about 5 seconds. he said he liked my hair. i didnt care. hehe i didnt care. lalala what to say. hehe 2 and a half men is so funny. charlie sheen or however u spell it is hilarious. i forgot... thinking those dirty thoughts.... I mean.. thinking about those dirty dancing havana nights thoughts... i had the urge to watch it. so we rented it on the way home. thats why we went to albertsons. i love this movie!!!! heres a pic........