Ok so hey!

I would love brett... even if... a walrus ate my kidney!!!! and that's love folks.

Um its been a little while... On wendnesday Jenae went with me to Uturn for the first time in FOREVER! It was so awesome. I forgot how nonjeni I am without her. She's one of the few people who brings out my best. Everyone missed her so it was cool. I hope she can go again.

Work had been pretty good. I mean considering its work. Its very easy, but boring. But I work with this lady tanya and she is really nice and we get along really well. Her son rob comes in at 3. We're trying to get him to go to Uturn but he isnt really into it. cool kid tho. Had school Thursday and then work and then I was gonna go to my last luke lesson before I start jonathan lessons. But I was running late. I went home to change and Luke said we'd do it another day. Poo. So I watched red dragon with andres. I never saw that before and it has edward norton in it and I love him! So that rocked my kazbah. Then I talked to derek on yahoo. But I dunno, I think I made him mad or something cuz he got kinda weird and left pretty fast. I hope I didnt offend him or something pooey like that.

I got up to go to school today but my mother wanted to yell in my general direction so plans changed. We got in kinda a BIG fight. I didnt feel like going to school so I went to the park but it was dumb and I didnt know what time it was. I stopped by andres house to check the time and hang out before I went to lunch with PM. That was good. PM's really awesome and I see things differently when I talk to him. So after that, while Iwas waiting to go to work.. I wrote my mom a letter. I was gonna give it to her when I got home but I dunno. that didnt happen. I got home and ate and then I started doing dishes and she got all crazy again. this time for no reason. well this morning was kinda for no reason too. but yeah. and I just got so mad. I played some drums. andres came over and watched aladdin. He left tho. But its still on. Almost over. I like this part. the little kitty turnss back into a tiger.

I miss brett. I did something for him last night. It wont be done for a while tho. But I dunno. It might be really cool if he thinks its really cool. obviously. I love him.

I am getting so frustrated with my mom. I cant even put into words whats been going on with that lady. Its crazy. And theres just too much. I wish brett was here. I need him. I wasnt doin so hot and PM gave me his # and said to call whenever I needed to just talk or if I missed brett and to call him instead of calling brett. and I havent called him yet but today the mother really roasted my nuts.. theres a cute expression. but yeah, so I tried to call PM but she wouldnt let me... yeah i know its crazy. long story. So I called my brother but he was in a movie. sheesh. I wish he was here too. I need a jason hug. grr I miss my brother. Havent talked to him in weeks. BUt its ok. He's gonna call tomorrow. So YAYA! hmm. I wish someone else was here too. But she doesnt care. And I guess that's ok. I suppose its stupid of me to miss something or someone rather, that doesnt miss me back. like for real. It sucks to say cuz on my part it was real. But I guess it was a fake friendship from the start. well no. thats not exactly true. i hope. I dunno. No more of this.

I need more girl friends. That drive. and live close. yeah. Poo. Talya lives kinda close but shes always so busy. Im miss jamming with "Joe" thats her band name. Mine is "Stan". Amanda's car is gone. she gots in a car accident. sooooooooooo no amanda. well yeah amanda. but no car. nope. aki is too young. Hey I just realized that katie lives up the street. kinda sorta. shibby. Maybe I'll call up ali, kimmy, shelby and caitlin again. I miss them guys. they dont drive but oh well. Ya know what it is tho? Its hard to find girls that think the same. Like jenae is cool. we have similar senses of humor and were weird. weve been thro so much and were still there. I love her so much. We dont just get in a fight and thats it. I mean I dont think jenae is perfect. I see flaws but I love her unconditionally and I overlook the flaws. And I know there are many flaws she dislikes about me. But she loves me back. No drama. well, for too long. But yeah, girls are so girly and blah sometimes. cept jr high girls. but Im too old to hang out with jr highers. they are so awesome tho. cuz theyre real. then they get in high school and go nuts and bolts.

I need to exercise or something. I havent done anything in like 2 weeks. I feel chubbed.

I want a mini copper.

I miss brett. said that, but its true like a camel on an igloo... and thats so true. GAH! No but for seriousliness... Im going spaghetti and noodles without him. hope it doesnt show. probably not cuz Im me. woot.

Im kinda tired. Tis only 11. whats wrong with me?! I gots garden principles tomorrow. to be a member of sanctuary. 4 hours! but it'll be worth it.

Even if you can not hear, my voice

I'll be right beside you, dear.