It was the rest of that every 15 minutes simulation. I didn't think it would affect me at all cuz I dont drink and drive and its not real..its all pretend.. even when the parents went up and like the whole school was balling, i was sitting and yeah biting my lip to show no emotion, but the point is I showed no emotion. Then AndrewSomething's parents and family and a couple best friends went up. He recently was killed, not because of alcohol, but in a car accident. And even then I didn't cry, until the dad starts saying what a great brothe he was to his sister.. and he didnt stop there he just went on about how much she loved him and i looked at her and I felt so bad because if that was my brother I would die. I dont know what I would do without him and I am so sorry that she and anyone else who has lost someone like that or at all has to go through that. It scares me to think at any second my brother can be ripped out of my life and theres nothing i can do about it. And thats just an everyday worry, cause anyone can be killed driving, but he is in Iraq, in war. He is in the middle of total chaos and I dont have the assurance that he is ok until he calls and thats not often. I dunno it makes you just really think about all the people in your life and how important they are and how much you love them and what counts and what doesnt count.

gah... so much more, and no time... im too tired anyways, talk laters byes!