Listening to: Jaci Velasquez- Sanctuary
Feeling: carefree
gosh. i havent taken the time to actually sit down and write out my thoughts in a while. probably because i havent really had a chance to in a few days or something. Havent really had much sleep either. I cant even remember what I did a few days ago... *thinks*.. on friday i went to english and then yoga. brett was acting weird. he said he was going to drop the class like 15 minutes before it started and like he left.. and i was waiting in the class and as soon as it started he came in and acted like he never said that... so he isnt dropping the class. which is fine with me. pretty much anything is fine with me now. anyways i went to work and it was full of bleh. i just wasnt feelin it. after work i took a nap and then timmy came over.
On saturday, me and tim went to the inland invasion. We woke up around 8ish but ended up leaving at 10:30ish and got there around 12ish. ish. ish. ish?? what a LONG day! we were there from 12-11:30.. it was crazy but really fun. The first band we watched was Bloc Party. they were okay i suppose but i just couldnt get into them cuz they didnt seem like they were enjoying themselves. well the drummer and the singer but the bass player just stood there and stared into nothing and the other dude just rocked his head slowly back and fourth.. and it was gay. That show kinda sucked tho cuz there was so much smokers and and weed and such and it gave me a headache. im not used to that nonsense. not even at a distillers concert shoot. o my gosh! it was so expensive.. and timmy paid for everything and i felt so bad. water.. ok.. WATER was $3.50... for water! FOR WAAATER! lol. and then we had lemonade.. $5. and then later we had pizza and shared a sprite.. $14 or something. oi. and it wasnt even with pepperonis. those jerks. lol anyways.. arcade set fire or something.. they sucked anal sphincter. but they did have a girl drummer for some songs.. that was pretty neat-o. after that show we met up with my boss sam, he bf and a few of her friends. lol her bf offered me a beer. but dont u worry ur little heads.. i "just said no". they were funny tho. Live was ok.. for like 2 songs.. but bald guys really should take off their shirts.. i mean cmon now.. but i liked when he said "ouurrrrr love is.. like waaaaaaTER" yeah they rest of the song sucked tho. and they sing that other song thats like.. "i dont need no one to tell me bout heaven.. i just get my daughter and i believe..." i think its a cute song.. but still... keep your shirt on. OH! The girl from garbage was wearing a DISTILLERS tshirt! she so got cool points for that one.. and he accent.. yeah she's pretty much my hero now. jet was pretty good too i dint know any of their songs tho. same with beck. cept for the loser song. i love that song. oh the memories... good times man. me and timmy went to eat food before weezer got on. and 311 was playing when we got back and there were all sortsa mosh pits! it was fun and i went in one but it wasnt as exciting as the last pit i was in.. slick shoes o yeah. but still.. cant turn down a pit. and then AND THEN.. weeeeeeeeeezerrrr. holy ravioli.. rivers freaking cuomo rocks my casbah.. he was awesome like whoa before but now.. oh but now.. nope, i dont even know. its beyond words. i love him. but.. he wasnt wearing his glasses. *cries a lil* but freaking o my gosh i want his jacket.it was PURple! yeah they were pretty amazing. i got some picutres with timmys cell but they didnt come out good at all. hopefully he didnt erase them. i wanna put them on here maybe. thatd be cool. Oasis was after that. lol i told timmy that at nite time we should sneak under wire fence thing and go down to the pit area... well.. some dude asked me to move and he jumped over the fence and started running to the pit... well he got caught.. but it was just oh so motivatiing :) so i told timmy we should do it too. and yeah.. we're so freaking ninja. i'd like to say we're smooth too.. but i kinda tripped on the fence and fell over so.. that wasnt very kosher but hey... we got over. but we didnt go down to the pit cuz there were security dudes everywhere and such. but it was still a bit of a rush to get that far. we left after wonderwall. holy poop i wrote alot. o well. anyways. yeah it was fun. i was so tired i slept the whole way home almost. mostly. and my nose itched. yup it sure did and no one knows why.
sunday i had to get up at 7 in the am and get to church by 8 for some skit thing for uturn.me and jake did it a year ago for church but i havent looked at it since. we didnt even look at it until 8:30 and we performed it at 9ish. but i think it was better than expected. so thats good. got some laughs. timmy didnt end up going cuz he had this work thingy thing to go to but next week he said he'd go with us, especially since its church anywhere but here week. sal came over and we watched my cousin vinny but i ended up falling asleep for most of it. i felt bad cuz i invited him over to hang out and i took a nap lol. not the first time but still. timmy came over after that and wrote the rest of his paper and he showed me how to play the first part of the island in the sun song. we had dinner and then i realized i missed integrate. i didnt want to go anyways but i told sal i'd think about it. well i did.. just didnt change my mind i guess heh. o well. hope him and all the rest of em had fun. integrate is so overrated. grr. im a lil mad at pastor jonathan right now too. i came to him with a concern and he attacked me with all sorts of accusations. it was crazy. i played drums for timmy a lil. a lil. jasons best friend sean came over while me and timmy were playing sweet home alabama and o my gosh.. he is crazy on a guitar. its obnoxious. haha i still remember when he said "jeni we have to jam sometime!" and we never did. people are silly. cuz they never reeeeally mean it.. when they say "yeah we should hang out" or something equally lame. its just something to say to go along with "okay see you later" anyways I need more classes. i think a found a few options. some short term classes that start this week. so im gonna call and see about those and then im good to go cuz i got my financial aid stuff taken care of today. I talked to talya at church and told her that i was available to help her out after work if she needed a break or anything and thatd itd be nice to spend more time with her. I told her about sean too and what happened and she was really understanding and doesnt think less of me or anything and even affirmed me that it isnt weird to push someone away in certain situations.. i mean, i guess i was just scared of kelli moving in and didnt want to stick around for all that cuz i knew i wouldnt be ok with it.. and i guess i subconciously sabatoged everything so i wouldnt get hurt. kinda back fired but its okay, like i said.. its for the best. about a week or so ago i realized that sean and me were fun and cute as a couple or whatever but could i reeeeeeeeally see myself with him in the future? Mmm. honestly no. So he was right. And I'm doing really good.. its actually kinda suprising how well i am doing.. i guess the more you go through the routine of "getting over" someone.. the faster it is. i still talk to him online a lil. cuz we're "friends" or something but gosh.. he really needs to stop asking what i am up to or what im thinking.. cuz its none of his business. i really dont even see the point. i shouldnt feel like i should tell anyone anything right now cuz im not going out with anyone. so people just need to stop being so nosy.
ha. A HUUUUUUUUGe entry and i didnt even really say what i am reeeeeally thinking.. hmm.. o well. this is where your imagination kicks in...
but anyways... oH! today at work sam said that all her friends said that i was so cute loL :) that made my day.. she introduced me to them as her "intern" so she said they kept referring to me as "the intern" and they said i was "so cute" and "so cool" yup direct quotes lol. what? i like compliments.. and they said that me and timmy were so cute lol.. i dont even know what we were doing but they said it was cute. tear tear.. sniff snifff..
i am gonna get ink YAY! i needed ink. yay for ink.
ok bye.
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ps
mom was wrong. and its harder than she thinks. why not just see what happens? i mean its 2005.. i dont know.. who cares? you cant "care"anyways cuz the innocence of the world is gone and everyone has their crap. myself included. why does everything always have to be so perfect or so set in stone? i've seen crazier things go down... i'll be fine.. even if i make a mistake
(dont even worry about what this means)
:)