I went to church and it was pretty cool tonight. We went to jack in the crack afterwards like usual and it was really fun. I havent laughed so much in a long time. I brought Batman. Everyone thought he was ugly. It was great. Have you seen Hidalgo? It is a gay movie. I saw it with my fatherly unit on tuesday. We had dinner at BJ's and then he bought me a hermit crab and a book about poland. Because I like polish people. And I am 1/16 polish. House update: The tile in our kitchen is down and so is the carpet. Its like this light tanish color and the tile matches. It looks pretty neat-o. And now the guy is working on our bathrooms. I was supposed to get new carpet but I like my ugly brown stuff. Crab update: He's still alive. Poor thing tho, I forget the little guy has ears and I was really loud around him today and he is probably deaf now. O well. Yesterday was kinda an awful day. My cell phone isnt really mine. I was just borrowing it while my brother was in Iraq, but he's back now. So my mom told me to erase all my stuff. And I was and I had 25 saved messages from brett.. would have been more but 25 is all it lets you store up. And it doesnt let you delete them all at once. I had to go through every single one. And I didnt want to just skip them so I just listened to every single one the whole way through... I'm such a stupid dork. And yeah it made me sad. and then I cried. and then I took a nap. Tomorrow Jake is coming over to jam. Talya has a dentist appointment so she cant make it. No worries tho, jake already knows I suck so it shouldnt be to much of a suprise. Talya wants to write a song about Batman. I am boring and have nothing else to write but I dont want to go to sleep yet. On behalf of an ox, Im not wearing sox... thats a lie Gosh, yesterday I wrote an email to brett. And it was the hardest email I have ever writen.. I wish this could all be different. I was reading a letter I never sent to him from when we first met. cuz I do that, i wrote letters that I never send. and the whole time I was saying how awesome he was and at the end the last sentence said "I would never hurt you". And i felt so awful. i wanted to dig a hole with my face, crawl inside and die. well on a happy note...heh... I am out.