so bleh. talked to sean last night. and everything was fine. but everytime i think everything is ok.. something pops up. and i didnt think it was a big deal... cuz its not. but it just hurt my feelings i guess. thats all it was. i wasnt trying to make him feel bad or anything. am i too sensitive? i just am a little uncomfortable with things. but i trust sean. i dont think he'd ever like hurt me or ha, cheat on me? no. i dont think that at all. Its not a trust thing. are there some things that all guys have in common and all girls need to just deal with it?.. or is this just something i'd have to look past? cuz i dont think this is something all guys have in common. thats not fair.. why should i be any different? why should i make that exception? other girls arent having this problem or some girls just go with it.. i guess im having trouble figuring out what girl i want to be.. but, thats dumb.. i'm not looking for "perfect". thats boring. but.. its not like this "thing" is country music. i can overlook country music. but yeah.. i care about sean so much. I can look past things. i can. im not changing myself. my mom said yesterday "any other girl would not be putting up with this kind of crap.. u have to figure out what ur comfortable with" and i said "sometimes u have to let go of high standards" and she got so mad at me for saying that. but i dont think im "letting go of my standards" im just chooosing not to care. well.. care but not be bothered by things. pray about it and read my bible. and stop worrying so much. i definately dont want to change anyone. sean is amazing just the way he is. i think we share alot of important values and beliefs and such.. and i think its impossible to find someone who mirrors everything you think and feel. i know that. and yeah. everyone has obstacles to cross but we'll manage. like Pj said today.. remain in the love. he was talking about God.. but he was also referring to marriage. and i think sean could get alot from that message. i also feel i got alot from it. im not going to run away. i'll remain in this and see what happens. everything is grood. good. and great. great and good :)haha. tomorrow is our 1 month aniversary (haha that word is so... out there). heh its gonna be interesting. i get my wisdom teeth pulled tomorrow. then i see sean and i'm gonna be all puffy faced and drooly and bleh. then he's going to washington on tuesday. yeah. what else?
nothing.
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