yeeeeah
today is weird. went to school. english was boring today.. only because i was tired tho. it wouldnt have been if i were awake cuz i like that class. the guy from across th street is in my class.. he's weird looking. like a robot.. its weird. but yeah after that i got on a bus to work.. i finished everything i had to do really fast.. and then i did some other random things.. but overall there was nothing really they needed me for so i left early.. jason was gonna pick me up at 1:20 but since i got out early i decided to take the bus home. i was gonna take the 3 and transfer onto the 4 at the transfer station.. but i wa so tired.. lol i fell asleep on the bus.. and i woke up on bouquet right as were turning onto seco.. but i was so tired i didnt realize that it was the wrong way.. so i got off and got on another and the guy was being a jerk and saying my transfer slip thing was no good and blah and he tore it up! but he took me down the street and i waited at goodwill till jason picked me up. i found some awesomely comfortable jeans.. and some cute grey pants and a shirt that says "super brusher" or something and it has kids holding giant tooth brushes! lol it was cool.. but i didnt get them cuz i didnt have my card. gay. so i came home and ate so much food!!! a bowl of cereal.. a bowl of streamed rice.. and a grilled cheese sandwich.. and i think the cheese in the grill was bad tho.. cuz it was gross. anyways.. i took a 2 hour nap. mmmmmmm! sleepy goodness :) went to church with my mom around 6:30. and church was good.. yeah. talking about the end. of. the world. as we know it. haha. i wish i was cool enough to have a cast like pastor marty.. I had some good conversations tonite.. gosh i love donovan. ive never done that... i am always reeeeeeeally good at holding back my tears when i want to. cuz sometimes i just let myself cuz i dont feel like trying not to.. and i didnt want to.. and as soon as i hugged him.. the tears came astreamin. and we talked and he had good things to say.. and after, pdk came over and talked to me.. and shoot.. i need tape recorders when i talk to him cuz.. i can never rememmber everything and everything he says is soo good. and blah. i love pdk.. he should have a girl cuz he has 2 boys right now.. but i think he'd have so much wisdom for a girl. of his own tho. and she'd always feel loved. well after that i went home and i was online and my brother came upstairs and asked to talk to me. and knew that i had been struggling to figure out what to do.. about being with sean.. and.. my brother really suprised me. you know.. he has to keep his reputation of "protective older brother" but.. he was really trying to convince me to stay with sean. i knew my brother thought sean was an ok dude.. but he really thinks sean is good for me.. and he wanted me to think about what i was doing and wait it out. i dunno.. yeah. sean came over and me and my brother continued to talk. i had sean waiting for like 30 minutes.. oops. yeah i felt bad but.. the brother talks alot. kinda like me. so.. sean just left.. its like 3:30.. and i dont know. were going to talk again tomorrow.. and figure things out then. cuz it was too late to make a definate decision.. i mean in the morning isnt a good time to make any kind of decision.. i dont feel good. i took medicine.. i cant spell dymatap.. or whatever.. well good..nite.