I was listening to staind in the car. I havent heard this song in a long time but when I was singing it again, I felt like it was perfect and it was exactly how I was feeling. and how I have been feeling lately. kinda. its a good song.

It's been a while

Since I could

Hold my head up high

And It's been a while

Since I first saw you

And It's been a while

Since I could stand

on my own two feet again

And it's been a while

Since I could call you

And everything I can't remember

As [censored] up as it all may seem

The consequences that i've rendered

I stretched myself beyond my means

And It's been a while

Since I can say

That I wasn't addicted and

It's been a while

Since I can say

I love myself as well and

It's been a while

Since I've gone and [censored] things up

Just like I always do

and it's been a while

But all that sh*t seems to disappear when I'm with you

And everything I can't remember

As [censored] up as it all may seem

The consequences that i've rendered

I stretched myself beyond my means

Why must I feel this way?

Just one more peaceful day

And it's been awhile

Since I could

Look at myself straight

And it's been a while

Since I said "I'm sorry"

And it's been a while

Since I've seen the way

the candles light your face

And it's been a while

But I can still remember just the way you taste

And everything I can't remember

as [censored] up as it all may seem

To be,

I know it's me

I cannot blame this on the mother

she did the best she could for me

And it's been a while

Since I could

Hold my head up high

And it's been awhile

Since I said "I'm sorry"

I love that song.

was just a normal day.

I miss brett alot tho.

Its been 24 days thats 3 weeks and like 3 days... thats alot . almost a month. almost. and wow. its almost his birthday! I cant wait! Im so excited for him and I want to share thatd ay with him so bad!!!! times 7... He's online. yeah.

I had work and blah. I got there and tanya was there and everything was normal. And then dave said that he needed to talk to mae.. his wife who is like the owner too. and he said to tkae a walk to fosters freeze or something cuz itd be a while. But I forgot my keys at home so I went home to get them and when I got back. Tanya's desk was cleared and everyone was all weird. Dave let her go and it sucked cuz tanya was cool and I was just starting to get to know her and she was really nice and cool. it made me sad. But kai is coming back so thats cool.

Kai! coming to an office near me.

Went to the drama thing at my church tonite like usual. We had to get up on stage and pull something from our life that made us angry and act it out.. oi. talk about scary. I wasnt gonna do it but sal kept saying "jenis turn!" and then everyone was like expecting me to... grr. so I did and I used my situation with brett and I was mad at my mom.. but Im too goofy. BUT! bob said I am fun to watch and I have potential and it was good when I am confident... but i think i was just goofy and we were suposed to be angry, cant do angry on stage. nope.

I miss BRETT! TTerb! foom?

Nothing else to say excpet i love brett and I want his babies. and yeah.

bye i love him. i mean u. all of u. yup. and mostly him. him=brett. my lover in france.