I like a lot of it and some parts really annoy me. But overall I think its a good video for people who are ignorant of autism and aspergers.
I have mild aspergers so i can really relate to her when she says "i realize I'm not the norm" she has overcome a lot of her obstacles and I feel I have to.. and although i am prone to self criticism and get upset that i didn't have help and support.. at the same time i am proud of myself for being who i am now and accomplishing the things I have with aspergers and i did a lot of it on my own without knowing why things were harder for me than other people. I have a long way to go and I have a lot of things I probably cant change. But I am proud of how far I've come.. i really want to make a video like this but I'm kind of embarrassed. it would be cool if i knew only strangers would see and not my family/friends. but the internet is so connected it hard to sneak things past them. But after reading the comments on her video on youtube, it makes me want to even more. comments like... " My friend has aspergers and this helps me understand him more :D " and stuff. I want to do that for people. I like how she says she has friends and she loves them and they love her. I have some too. There are a certain number of people i relate to and feel comfortable with... most people think autism and think "mute" so if you talk you don't have autism. People think aspergers and think no eye contact or no friends... so if you have a group of friends or look people in the eye.. you don't have aspergers. people are so stupid. and autism and AS aren't so cookie cutter. aspergers is even more complicated. And children grow up into adults. Everyone learns and adapts. pratice make perfect and a kid with aspergers or autism that is constantly being told they are wrong or bad or stupid or whatever is eventually going to try to change. that's why i want to make my movie. to show people a different perspective. for a long time aspergers was so obsolete. now there are books on it all over. books about autism, aspergers, marriage, employment etc. there is even a book called look me in the eyes by a guy with aspergers who wasnt diagnosed until he was pretty old. but i have yet to see a story like mine. people overlooked me because i wasnt normal enough to be normal and i was too normal to think i had something even close to autism. all the books and videos i read say the same thing to parents and teachers.. that its imperitive to get early diagnosis. ok. well what if that didn't happen? what about the people who didn't know? that's why i want to tell my story. people know its tough for autistic people but aspergers i think have it even harder.. because people perceive them as normal and their expectations are higher than someone with autism. even my closest friends.. i don't think they get it. they "know me". so they think. they have no idea the amount of effort put into a simple conversation. even my best friends.. they never deny that i have AS but at the same time.. they seem so skeptical... they have a retort for every thing i say about it. and its not like they'd know. i have NO friends from my childhood. all of them have been made in highschool or later. my friends and family dont even really get it because my behavior was always explained as not having a dad and acting out to get attention. and other stupid things. i just wish a person i told, just one time, i would be like.. I have this.. and they'd be like.. 'yeah you do and its ok. i accept you. ' tim has been that person actually. tim has been perfect. every time i read about what a partner should do or be.. tim is it. Tim is not the push over my mother makes him out to be... she tries to paint me as a controlling person. only because she is controlling and she'd like feel better if she wasnt the only one always accussed of being controlling or something. but tim knows me better than anyone. everyone has controlling selfish moments, even timmy. but he knows me and he knows i am not controlling. my mom percieves me not letting her control me as me controlling her. its outrageous. its mad. its literally crazy. i've never met anyone like my mom. there was a time. many times actually. when i wished we could be close. and there are a lot of times i thought that was possible. i don't think that way. i know I've said idont want to talk to her anymore a lot. but I'm not going to say that because i know i probably will have to talk to her eventually for some stupid reason. but i'm not caring anymore. i am not going to let anything she says affect me. maybe on the outside i will look upset because well i just cant help being upset when she says ridiculous things but i wont care past that. our relationship is on the surface and it will stay there. we are and will be nothing but aquaintences at best. i've tried confiding in her, talking to her, sharing, crying, everything.. she is not comforting or nurturing like a mother should be. she takes what i say and uses it against me. she doesn't deserve a daughter. she definitely doesn't deserve me. its taken me a long time to say that. i've been mad but.. she does not deserve me in her life.
sidetracked...
anyways watch the video its neat.
ps.
again about tim... marriage is hard enough without adding AS to it... but tim has proved that we belong together adn that i couldn't connect with anyone else like i can with him. he calms me down, he builds me up, he encourages me, he gives constructive criticism, he listens, he helps, he understands... things any husband should try to do.. but tim does them for me which can be a lot different, if not harder, than it usually is.