I got my first audition. Its not anything huge or anything. Its a student film.. but it is a big deal in that its my first audition for anything. I've been in a play or two in church and idk maybe an elementary school play. but i don't really remember auditioning for the parts. It almost seemed like I asked and I got it. Like the last thing I acted in was a skit for church. It was promoting my moms.. what would you call the ATEAM? idk.. her thing. Everyone said I did really good.. but i didn't really have lines. it was about expressions. and body language. I realize now that my speaking voice is lacking. I've been practicing and doing voice exercises to improve my pronunciation. I've been practicing the part too. Its a very short student film. Its about a girl that cheats on her bf or something. and she is absuive too. So i have to be like well he described it as "rugged" but i think a better term would be hard ass. I don't really know if I can shake my signiture look of "innocentness" but I think I'm doing alright. I know its just a student film, and no offense to film students but the dialouge isn't going to be winning any awards or anything, but I would like to do a good job. I could use it in my reel. I'm really enjoying this scene. Its hard.. its always been hard.. with new people or old people.. people confuse me and I have a hard time lasting long in social situations. But at the same time i like the challenge. I havent returned the DOR papers. The ones I signed that say my plan. I dont know if i like that plan anymore. i love computers and I love design and development and I like being a nerd. But i love acting too. I like pretending. Its like playing dress up for adults. who wouldn't like that? I don't know what I am going to do about the DOR. I would love to do both but i dunno anymore. If i changed my goal, instead of paying for my web design school, maybe they could pay for all the things it would take to really persue my acting career. but if things dont work out, then i wont have the web design schooling. and that wouldnt be good. grr. o well. one thing at a time. I gotta go get ready for my audition.. wish me luck bitches :)