jeni hearts sean. mhmm. i heart him. i really.. for really.. do.
hehe i'm enamored. sean says he's enamored with me.. hee.
so holy cow.. the next paragraph will be nothing more than me going on and on and on about exactly how AMAZING sean really is.. or... it would be.. if words could actually explain. he is everything.. so far, he is everything i am looking for. first off he isnt just a christian but a man of God and just a natural leader which every man should be. he is completely adorable.. sweet.. attentive.. affectionate and honest and everything else you could think of that i cant even think of. and wow. those lips. o geeze. enough said. and he freaks the poo outta me.. everything i feel about him thats in my head and wont come out.. he says about me.. and im like "yeah me too" or "ditto" and i feel lame but i really do mean it. someday i'll beat him to it.
today was so awesome! he picked me up around 10:30ish. and we went to his dad's house in granada hills. we went there last night so i got to meet his dad and step mom but it was really short.. so today i got to hang out with all of them. and it was really cool.. intimidating at times and kinda scary but completely comfortable at the same time.. huh. his little sister ella is SO cute. and cole is adorable. we had a water fight and me and sean took cole to the park and then they had a bbq. sean told me that when i went into the house for something his dad basically told him that he approved :) which is quite a relief since his dad intimidated the poo outta me. but no, he is cool. and when sean stepped outta the room and i was there with the adults, he would include me in the conversation and such. i thought that was cool.
after that we went to castaic lake and hung out with some people from my church. it was interesting cuz my mom kept introducing him as my "friend" but she knows we're dating. o well. and when the fireworks started.. i looked at sean and i thought of ever other 4th of july i've had and decided that this year was hands down the best one yet. luke lead worship after that and my cousin was so sweet.. he came and gave me a hug outta nowhere and it was cute. i dunno i guess i needed one. and then i hugged batine and i dunno.. something about those two hugs made me so relaxed and peaceful. guess ive been really stressed out lately so it was nice. when we got to my house my brother and his friend sean were lighting firecrackers like crazy and basically being idiots. it was great.and some dude kept walking by every 5 minutes and play random ring tones on his cell phone. he's a pot head. or something. we watched bruce almighty with my brother and then he left and we put in finding nemo but mostly just sat. and cuddled. and talked. and ki..kill the donuts.. but they were already dead. anyways... wow. i know it looks fast on the outside.. but inside it feels right. right on time and perfect. i feel like i've known him for so much longer than i have. i really just dont understand it. oi. i haven't experienced something like this before and im not sure what to do... im afraid im gonna ruin things but i have a peace about it all... like everything is gonna be fine because this is how its supposed to be. its weird cuz when i started dating andres after brett i felt weird when one time he called me babygirl cuz brett used to call me that. that was "his" name for me. and i felt weird calling him baby or anything. i dont think i even ever did start calling him baby. but.. with sean.. i have to stop my self continuously. and i was all day.. stopping myself. and i let one slip and it felt really good. and yeah, he liked it. he called me honey and sweetie and doll and all sortsa cute stuff and i dunno.. maybe its all just cute cuz its from him.. he could probably call me a nazi and i'd be like "aww" how cute! jk. anyways... yeah i guess my whole thing was just that.. this feels so right. and that's all i can really say. i mean.. i think of that verse "delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart" and all i desire is to love someone and be loved and you know.. allthat jazz. and i have been in the word and i was reading that book. praying more... and its just crazy cuz a day after i let everything go.. God brings a sean into my life. a day. i went months and months and months worrying over countless things when all the while if i would have just surrendered and been obedient he could have given me a blessing even sooner. but i'm happy with what's happening now.. obviously. and hehe.. oi. heh, before sean left tonite he basically siad.. well he did say.. he is falling in love with me.. and all i can say to that is a huge.. "ditto"
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