I should really be asleep right now. I have an interview in the morning, but... I can't. For some reason I am having crazy anxiety. Maybe about the job but I doubt it. Maybe about a new bunny? No. I duuno. Anxiety is weird. Its like butterflies almost. Excitement and nervousness but multiplied and tingly. And you get dizzy and out of breath. and kinda of warm. and your ears get hot. Exactly like butterflies only so much more intense and its not pleasant. I never cared much for butterflies. I mean I liked the idea and getting them was ok, but the actual feeling I could do without. Or is butterflies just a mini anxiety attack? labels are annoying.

I played COD with amanda and casey and i wasnt as talkative as i usually am. especially when it was just me and amanda before casey got on. But she isnt one who feels the need to talk all the time so it was ok. Ians friends are annoying. When casey got on i started forgetting about it somewhat but it was still there, subtle but there. O great another peak of anxiety is heading my way.

Anyways. Jefri has a girlfriend. She is very young. I almost think she is too young.. She is so sweet and nice and cute and funny tho. He likes her. a little too much. He wanted to mount her. She likes him too. BUt I don't want him to mount her even if he is nuetered . she is just a baby. Her name is Panda cuz she is white with black ears and some black spots. The spots on her face make it look like she has a mustache. but we like her anyways. When she drinks her ears dip in the water. She likes to follow Jefri. We're keeping her in our room. Jefri is outside. I don't want to keep them together until I know Jefri will behave. I dunno if that will happen. But she isn't getting mounted until she is an adult!

Casey let me borrow his video camera. I'm excited about that. Practice is fun and also I heard that video taping yourself when you have asperger's is good to see how you look to others and stuff. I completely forgot to make it to my DOR appointment. And then I forgot to reschedule. Or call at all. That was a week ago. i also wanna make an appointment to get back on birth control pills. I hate these random periods. Almost turned into an embarrassing situation this last time. Luckily I am a ninja.

E3 was cool. Fun times. people say it was better last year. I didn't get my bear hat and I am rather bitter about it. And I didn't get Amanda the Zelda t shirt she wanted but she said its ok. I got ian some bungie swag but I think i might keep it instead. I like my sims 3 keychain and pac man lanyard.

I thought this would distract me. take my mind away from whatever it is freaking me out. but its not helping. I havent had an anxiety attack in a long time. Its awkward and I don't care for it one bit..

So. I guess I should try and sleep. I just took some melatonin. Maybe that will help but I dunno.