My favorite Christmas line of any Christmas song. I don't care if you don't like it.. its about popcorn and that's hot. Choli wont leave Tim alone. She is being a nut. Last night was nice. A few days ago we got into a weird fight. it probably escalated the way it did yes, because of my period. but there were still pressing thoughts that needed to be talked about anyways.. in a lot of ways I feel better, and in some i feel a little more confused or lost. but fights always end well. they always result in us feeling closer than we did. and the worked up energy turns into passion instead. fights can be pretty useful sometimes. in fact, we felt so close i told him something that i told myself i wouldn't tell anyone ever. its really.. idk what to call it. but its something that happened with that Jason guy. And I guess it was bothering me a lot more than I thought so i guess its a good thing that i said something.. it was awkward. but i felt like a weight was lifted off of me and i don't really feel the same way about it anymore. Timmy was glad I said something and he said that the Jason guy is a jerk and I don't have to feel bad. i dunno, i think i just needed to hear it from someone i trust, instead of myself. I don't think the Jason guy was a bad person. Compared to others... no names.. Brett... in my life, he's not even close to a bad person. I just think he saw how hurt i was at the time, and took full advantage of it. its weird how your eyes don't actually open to certain situations until you aren't there to change them. now everything i feel about it or the things i realize feel meaningless. I also think he is a bit of a freak. and Tim agrees. What is it with me attracting these creeps? seriously that's like 4.. and if i didn't have Timmy and I were still single.. i am pretty sure it wouldn't stop there. so anyways. i had a weird dream last night. well a series of weird dreams but one of them sort of freaked me out a little bit. just because its a repeat. i always pay extra attention when i have repeat dreams or when there are repeat people i don't know or just anything that happens more than once.. and so i was at this medical seminar i guess. and i was with Timmy. and we looked like ourselves but we were Ross and Rachel from friends. and joey was joey and looked like joey. and he knew the doctor speaking and introduced us because i had something bothering me on my back. and i lifted my shirt and showed the doctor and there was a huge hole in my back and a plant (that kinda looked like an Aloe Vera plant) was growing out of the hole in my back! And a few weeks or months ago i had a similar dream. dun dun dun.. I have solved my shut down problem. It was all AOL's fault. stupid AOL. Now to figure out what makes my internet connection go to crap.. but Timmy thinks that AOL was affecting that too so hopefully he's right. Timmy bought me an external hard drive :] so now i can store all my files on it and not worry if something happens to my stinky computer. speaking of stinky.. Choli is usually so good with her litter box.. but when we got home today, she was covered in poo. it was horrible. I almost puked 3 times. we had to give her a bath and that was NOT fun.. cats and baths... = lots of scratches. SO the girl at walmart was so stupid. we were in the speedy check out. i just had one thing to get because we bought all the other things when we got my birth control pills. and the girl in front of me was an employee cashing her check.. and the girl working was probably.. most likely.. the stupidest girl in the entire world. I'm pretty sure. every line was about 10-15 people long, on more than 10 open registers so.. pretty freaking busy. and this girl is just taking her sweet time, chatting and trying to be funny and not being able to count out $300 with $20.. and just like laughing at everything and avoiding eye contact with everyone but the girl cashing her check because it was obvious everyone in the line was getting pissed off. seriously like 20 minutes JUST waiting for her to finish with the girl cashing her check. and that girl is more annoying because its like.. go to a freaking bank you ass face. or maybe go to a register and do it yourself.. freaking hold up the speedy check out for 20 damn minutes. I was mad. but i didn't say anything. the guy behind us took care of that. it was kinda funny. idiots. walmart. a breeding ground for idiots. seriously she isn't the only idiot working there. there's also this other guy in electronics. usually you don't recognize employees like that but apparently he is the ONLY guy in that department.. all the time. everyday. every second. and its horrible because he thinks he knows everything. about everything. and has to run a commentary on everything.. even if you don't ask. like this woman was buying a game for her kid. and the guy gets it down and says "i have to ask, is this for a child under 17?" and she is like "no" but its like.. a kid under 17 can buy a game like that if they have an adult present.. and it was an adult buying it.. so the guy is a moron. and after she said no.. he continues "it has strong language and violent graphics not suitable for children" i wanted to smack him in the face. anyways. Wal-mart employees, if you should ever read this.. I hate you. get a brain. Oh. So I put up an ad for craigslist for some freelance work.. and i got like 6 responses so far. that's after only 2 days :]