was having a good day. i was. after i wrote my last entry i went up stairs and put up posters on my wall. Then I listened to some music. Then I talked on the phone with the vannessa. and then I got to talk to my brotherly type unit on the yahoo messanger. But he seemed blah. I showed him some pictures. He hasnt seen me in a year. wow I forgot how long. He said I was very pretty. Then Heather took me to Cold Stones. I got reeses and cookie dough. it wasnt as good as sherbert and gummie bears. We were going to go to the church baseball game at central park at 8:30 but it was actually at bouquet park at 6:15. So yeah we missed it. Ribbit. rabbit. yeah i need to get rabbits out of my head.

i miss brett. heather was telling me how its really hard to be friends with a boy after being in a relatonship..and what would the next person i am with think..basically hinting that i should not be bretts dffriend again.... but BUT BUT BUTT I dont care. I will always have him in my life..eventually. And I dont have anyone else. And that wouldnt matter anyways. Gosh its not cool to think of those things.

I need to stop thinking. I have been doing more thinking and less praying lately. And I have been missing him more and more and more. And I am a loser. And with my luck.. he will find some sexy chico girl who is ninja and likes to breakdance in a week. A week. O yeah and she will be asian and like everquest... and anime. and read THICK books. good books yes... but sheesh.