ya know its so weird.. everyday starts out so good and ends in tears.. no matter what. I hate it.

I got up and went online. went running. took a shower. then vannessa and jenae came with me to uturn.

It was fun and good stuff. We were dancing to music outside and one of the old security guys started dancing with us. Jenae took pictures. We went to jack in the crack after and burst into song.. it was funny, the workers think we are so nuts.

me and my mom havent been getting along very good. which insnt new, but its getting worst and its probably all my fault. I guess Im just releasing anger out on her and that not fair even if she does it to me all the time.

But she said some stuff and started accusing me of talking to brett and that that is the reason i am always online.. well i havent been talking to brett and when she said that it made me think of him so i started crying and she said well why are you crying and stuff like that.. so she thinks I am. And that just makes me want to. Cuz i already want to. And then I get an email from him and he isnt doing to good. and neither am i. and I just want to be there for him. I dont know.. should I? GAH! I know as soon as I do I will realize it was wrong and have to start over... i dont know.. if you want to go thru that again.. talk to me.