hmm. someone actually read my diary enough to know i skipped like 9 entries and cant keep count.... i dont even read it enough to tell that. and sometimes when im bored.. i read an entry and go... "hmmm".. people have way to much time on their hands if they sta and counted 991 entries. o well. too late to fix the error now.. i think i did ok if i only missed 9 out 1000... today was a weird day. i got up. me and timmy went to the swap meet. it was weird cuz on tuesdays the bigger sellers dont go, just the random people with random stuff. and its free to get in. it wasnt very big but i found a rabbit hutch for jefrie. its ugly but cute. i also got him some squash. not really sure if rabbits like squash but i think he needs to broaden his horizons anyways. his eye is getting worse. it was getting better and better and then today it was all wet and crusty. which sounds like an oxy moron but its true. after that i went to work or whatever. i tried to work on some stuff for my website. i was hoping i'd get to coc at 5:45 since i meet lisa at 5:30 at golden valley. but she got home late so i got to coc at 6;30. so i only had an hour and a half... to do nothing. it sucked. i am trying really hard and ive been reading my book over and over and takig notes.. but i cant learn that way. i didnt learn photoshop or html from reading a book. maybe some stuff but mostly from trial and error. just messing around.. but since i dont have it and i cant get it and i have to go all the way to coc to work on anytrhing.. its hard to learn it. im probably going to fail the class. it'll be a miracle if i dont. and now that i said that.. well. nvm. oi. so i got in a really crappy mood. actually i have been in a really crappy mood. and i came home and on the way home me and timmy got into a little argument or something and i went straight to the bedroom to stare at the wall. and then he came in and he has this way of calming me down. he told meeverything is going to be alright and we'll get through it.and he loves me. and he let me cry with him for a little while and held me. it doesnt seem like that big of a deal but i was feeling like theres no point and i just want to give up sometimes on everything because i suck at everything.. and instead of disappointing me, im disappointing him now too. and sometimes i think he think's of me the way i think of me. and it was scaring me. its wierd. ive been really emotional. like more than usual. i think its the bcp's. actually now that i think about it.. last time i started taking them was around the same time the nurse prescribed me prozac. and once i stopped taking the pills.. i stopped taking the prozac. i dunno if it has anything to do with the other but i dunno maybe. those one a day woman vitamin things.. are HUGE. i really almost puked this time. for real. havent heard from lamont in a while. i wonder if he forgot about my business cards. anyways... ___________________________________________ and by the way... i had 14 missed and 13 double so i was only off by 1 entry. 999 yesterday which makes this one 1000! woo.. go me.