so i went to the doctor today. a lot better than the last one. but then again i might be bias seeing as how the last one was the gyno and she poked at my bits and this one did not. had she, i might not like her as much. it went good.. i am back on yaz instead of ocella. its just so much better and she agreed and said that its the one she recommends to people. she says it just works better. its more expensive tho.. but she gave me 3 months while i was there for free and a 3 month prescription. so she said it's like a 50% discount. i also talked to her about my stomach and how i thought it was stress.. and she said it was. and then we talked about why i was stressed and that led to the discussion of Prozac, on my part because it was next on my list of things to bring up. and she gave me a prescription for a low dose of that too. i like how its a lot closer than Facey. she also told me to drink 2 liters of water a day.. i should have probably mentioned the fact that my bladder is the size of a pea and if i actually did that, i would have to spend all my time in the bathroom. i drink a glass of water and i have to pee 5 minutes later... and she wants me to drink 2 liters? a day? is she nuts? "its been suggested".. -Joel, eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. heh. Choli is possessed by the devil.... by the wayyyy.. so blackheads suck. i was getting them a lot on my nose.. and i read that you should steam and then press them out.. gross yeah i know. but i tried it and it didn't work and left my face all red. but thennnnn i read another article and it said the same thing... but this time i wrapped tissue around my fingers... both articles said to but i ignored the first time... i thought it was stupid... but i did it this time.. and what the heck??? it worked! amazingly! because of TISSUES! my nose is so soft and clear of blackheads now :] its its.. it was so great i am going to try it on Timmy tonight.. because he also has some blackhead issues on his nose.. but alas, they have seen their last day! crazy how its the little things that always seem to matter most.. mostie toastie. well i have had no sleep.. last night i went to bed at 3am. went to bed. not to sleep. to help with sleep i thought I'd read a bit. but a bit turned into 2 hours. and it was 5:30am.. i thought reading was supposed to make you tired? i mean i guess it does.. i was exhausted.. but i couldn't stop reading. i closed my eyes and tried to sleep but my mind wouldn't shut up. i was very aware of the inside of my eye lids.. which was driving me crazy. it felt like i was just looking into a dark room but they were closed but it felt like they were open and i couldn't sleep with my brain thinking my eyes were open. because i had been reading so long the inside of my eyes had a small glow that would rotate in circles. it was sort of hypnotizing.. but i felt cross eyed after a while.. but when u go cross eye, u can just uncross and its fine.. but the rotating glow wouldn't stop! and the crossed eyed feeling continued for what seemed like hours.. i kept blinking and loooking up down right and left to get my eyes to a normal state. i tried focusing on other things.. but everything i had to think of made me angry and i didn't feel like being angry.. because when i am angry its impossible to sleep and i really wanted to sleep.. my mind fixed on a subject and before i knew it Tim was pressing the snooze on his alarm... he pulled me closer and nuzzled his face between my shoulder and neck and fell back asleep. i realized that the glow went away but now my right eye was twitching rapidly.. as i felt myself finally dosing off.. i heard the alarm again.. i really hope tonight goes a little better. the Prozac helped with the sleep issues last time.. but she said that the more people go on and off it, the less effective it can be or sometimes it wont work at all and to not be disappointed. but i think it will work. i wasn't on it that long last time and i haven't been on for over or almost 2 years now i think.. something like that.