Yesterday morning we woke up after that night of going to bed upset and aomething small happened and it just upset me so much and blah blah blah i cried. He pulled me close and said "hey. Hey, were okay." He said it a few times. He said we would get through what we need to ans we'd be ok.

When he got back from work i didnt want to talk. I put all that on pause and let us just enjoy each other. Also he was tired.. still getting iver being sick. We had a really good day. We laughed and joked and talked and other stuff. And idk it was nice.

I let him read what i wrote. We talked about it. He said he never wants me to feel like what i have to say isnt valid because he cares more about what i think over anyone else. He said he was going to think about it and try to react to things differently. He said he would try. I said i would too.

I feel bad. For feeling so much. For being so happy with him. Im also scared and skeptical. He knows though and says its ok.

I woke up and tim texted me. Asked about my phone. He wants me to get a new phone because it wouldnt cost anything or raise the bill and it would keep the credit on the account. Each line gets 25$ credit so he said its good. He texted me while he was in the store. I asked him if i could do it later. I asked if he would wait until we talk before buying me a phone. He called right after. While in the atore. Not exactly the time to talk. But i hinted that he probably woulsnt want to after hearing what i had to say. He said not to worry abiut it. That none of that matters and that its too good of a deal not to and that he wants me to have a good phone. He said "even if we have to change the phone plan.. its still a good deal right now". I forget how exactly he wordes it but he meant like change it because im not longer on it. So. I think he knows. A little.

Max says i should tell him. Becauae its bothering me. I said ive been so honest with him up until july and i told him i was dating.. i feel anything more isnt necessary. And frankly im just scared. He said i dont have to tell him but it would make me feel better and that tim seems like a very reasonable perosn and would probably be more understanding than i think. He said he seems like a decent person and maybe i feel bad because i feel he deserves to know wven if i dont have to tell him.

Idk more was said and happened but im tired and need to get ready for the day. I cried about it a lot though and he let me. And held me. And let me talk about it.